Bukas Hindi Na Ikaw

Chapter 28

I was staring blankly at the ceiling when I suddenly heard Tesa knocking on the door. Hindi ako kumibo. I don't feel like being productive today. I didn't even bother heading to school, because no, I'd rather not.

"Aria! Gising na! Ako ang pinagagalitan ng mommy mo eh! Kanina pa ko tinatawagan, tinatanong kung pumasok ka raw ba, e'di nag sinungaling ako sinabi ko oo! Bumangon ka na kasi diyan lagot ako sa mama mo pag nalamang hindi ka pumasok! Huy..." and then she knocked again. "Aria! Gising na bilis, sige ka, wala ka daw pasalubong mamaya kapag hindi ka pa bumangon."

I rolled my eyes out of exhaustion. Ginawa pa talaga akong bata.

But instead of getting rid of my bed, go to the kitchen and eat lunch, I covered myself with my comforter while finding a better position. Comforter na lang ata talaga ang mag cocomfort sa'kin.

"Aria!"

Again, I didn't bother answering Tesa. She's so loud, mas lalo lang akong nati-trigger na h'wag siyang labasin.

"Aist! Bahala ka nga dyan, h'wag kang bababa ha? Panindigan mo yan. Wag ka ring kakain, susungalngalin kita kapag nakita kitang kumakain sa ibaba." She hissed and even throw a hard punch on my door.

Thankfully, Tesa have already left and never bothered me again. But the soonest my room filled with silence, I was immediately visited by my unwanted thoughts again.

Vada pops up on my mind for the nth time and I couldn't forget how matured and how hot she looks like. I hate to say this but she's undeniably, splendidly bedabble, and the fact that Emmanuel's Jersey suits her body way better than mine, is so infuriating.

I hissed on myself and buried my face on the pillow I was hugging, as I began shouting without a noise. Bakit para siyang ex member ng sexbomb tapos ako mukhang memeber lang ng going bulilit! Bakit ang unfair! 

Moments later, I just found myself silently sobbing while hurting myself with my own thoughts again.

I haven't slept since last night, because my mind is too preoccupied to get quite some rest. My body is hella tired, so as my brain, but my eyes couldn't stop crying that I nearly catch a runny nose.

For the past weeks of being with Emmanuel, I have no idea how many of it was divided for me and Vada. I hate to use the term but only if I could comprehend, I knew I've been sharing Emmanuel with Vada for quite some time now.

And I just don't like that idea.

I love Emmanuel so much, and we may not be sexually related, but we have deeper connection, something I'm sure that Vada and him could never have.

My mind was doing its wonders, and in that case I drifted off to sleep. It was past 4pm when I was awakened by someone's loud and scandalous voice, shouting outside my room.

I even heard a hard-knocking on the door and just by the thought of someone whose got the audacity to do that, only one person crossed my mind.

"I'm not in the mood Marco!" I half shouted, doing my best to sound pissy.

"Open this godd*mn door Aria or I'll f*cking break this sh*t?!" she hissed.

At dahil alam kong hindi niya ako patatahimikin ay bagsak ang balikat kong tinungo ang pinto at pinag buksan siya.

I rolled my eyes in exasperation as I realized she wasn't alone. Murphy, Ralph and Dos are also with her. May bitbit pa silang apat na box ng pizza at dalawang case ng beer.

I went back to my bed and hid myself under the comforter.

"Get up!" Marco ditched my duvet, vigorously.