I climb into the shower and sit in the bottom of the tub, the water from the shower head is running down on me like a waterfall. It's hot and soothing but still I feel a hard sharp lump in my throat. My thoughts come to rear their ugly head once again, I want to scream and cry but I don't. I shake my head and pull myself together. No, I'm not gonna do this. I think to myself but I know I'm not okay.
I feel like I lost them before I even had them. Why does it hurt so bad, it's not like we were together, we just were friends, I hardly know them, so why does it hurt this fucking bad. How can I be this fucking attached to them when I barely know them? How could they act like I'm the enemy or I'm lying when I've been nothing but honest with them. I mean sure, I did keep things hidden but they were personal and I was going to tell them before Jàime beat me to it. I feel betrayed by everyone right now but somehow heartbroken too. I just need to be alone and sort it out. I get out of the shower and wrap a towel around me then decide to text Jàime.
Me- Hey.. just wanted to let you know that I'm back at the house. Everything is fixed up and the security system is installed.
Jàime- I know.
Me- Ok. Cool.
She doesn't text back after that. It was a bad fight her and I had, and I don't know where we stand anymore.
I toss my phone onto my bed and grab some clothes out of my dresser which are frilly black lace booty cutter underwear and a baggy old hole filled low cut Nirvana t-shirt then head to the kitchen to get some tea. I figure maybe that might help me to feel better. I get to thinking and feeling down so I think maybe I might need something stronger and head to the liquor cabinet. I know I shouldn't but I go for it anyways.
I grab some bourbon, turn on some music, grab a glass, pour in the whiskey and mix in some cola. I sit here sipping at first, I get halfway through the glass and can barely taste the alcohol so I pour in some more bourbon and finish the glass. I make each glass after stronger and stronger. I'm about three drinks in and feeling alright. Dancing around the house and singing at the top of my lungs like a fool. Forgetting everything that happened the last few days and I didn't want to even think about it. I didn't know what would become of my and the twins friendship. I didn't know what would become of my and Jàime's friendship. But what I did know was I had to pee.. bad.
I stumble to the stairs and start walking up them when suddenly I realize just how impaired I really am. I completely forget the fact that there is a bathroom down stairs I could have used but I'm almost to the top of the stairs. I start tipping backwards so I throw myself forward on to my hands and knees, smashing my knees on the steps, and I dog crawl on all fours up the stairs, I get to the top then find my footing and stumble forward to my bathroom. I flip the light on then pull my underwear down as I walk to the toilet. I sit down hard on the toilet and as I'm relieving my over full bladder I hear my phone that I previously tossed on my bed go off.
"Oh great, now Jàime is gonna tell me she's gonna move out and never speak to me again." I say out loud, as if anyone is here for me to talk to.
I wipe then pull up my underwear, wash and dry my hands quickly so I can see what she said.
2 new messages:
Unknown- Hey, Beautiful.
Unknown- What are you up to?
I read both texts but I don't reply. I bring my phone downstairs with me. I'm still upset and trying not to think about anything right now. How dare they even text me.
I set my phone on the counter, pour myself another drink and crank up the music. At this point it's about a hour later and I'm now six drinks in and I can't feel my face anymore. Deliberately ignoring my phone that's gone off three more times, I pour myself another drink.
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Path Of Shadows
FantasyGemma Skye Milos has lived a hard life. She has fought every step of the way to better her life and get to where she wanted to be. Just when she thinks everything has finally come together and makes sense, she meets fraternal twins Kaden and Dane Ea...