Chancy Revenge [Completed]

CHARM#35

_CHARM_

I woke up early the next day with Cebi sleeping peacefully next to me. Nothing happened last night. After that kiss, all he did was hold my hand until I fell asleep. Dahan-dahan akong tumagilid paharap sa kanya at hinayaan ang sarili kong pagmasdan siya.

This is one of my biggest fantasy. Sleeping next to him and waking up in the morning still next to him. But I guess that this is just one of my dream come true. Wala ng kasunod pa. Dahan-dahan kong inalis ang kamay ko sa pagkakahawak niya at maingat na bumangon sa kama. It's still 6:10 in the morning when I decided to walk towards the sliding door of his balcony. Cold and fresh air kissed my face that made me tremble for a second.

Makulimlim ang kalangitan at halatang anong oras ay papatak na ang ulan. Humawak na lamang ako sa railings ng balcony at tumanaw sa kawalan habang inaalala ang nangyari kahapon. Kaagad na bumigat ang dibdib ko.

He's watching me. He's watching every moves I make. And I know, he knows where I am right now. Upon knowing it gives me chills. Paano totoo nga ang mga sinasabi ni Luis? Paano kung...

"Hey." Kaagad na kumabog ang dibdib ko dahil sa gulat at mabilis na pumihit paharap kay Cebi na sa ngayon ay nakatayo na sa likuran ko.

His hair is messy yet it didn't made him less handsome.

"What are you doing here? It's cold in here. You should go back inside." He's voice is gentle and hoarse. Maybe because he just woke up.

Hindi ko siya sinagot. Tinitigan ko lang siya habang pinapakalma ang tibok ng puso ko. But as the seconds pass, the more my heart misbehave while directly looking at his deep black eyes.

I've been inlove with this guy for almost ten years. Ten years and here I am now, broken but still continue on loving him.

Starting from a simple crush that became deeper. Too deep that it became not good to the both of us anymore. I fell hard into him. But he fell harder to someone else.

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

But still, even years had been past, he still owns my heart. I got endless pain and heartaches because of my love for him to the point that I wanted to breakeven. But it never happened.

Sa kagustuhan kong maghiganti sa kanya, may nadamay pang inosente. And now, this is where my rekless chancy revenge pulled me. I guess this is the consequences of my decision.

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

"May problema ba, Charm?" Bakas sa boses niya ang pag-alala. Lumunok na lamang ako para kahit papaano ay mawala ang pagkabara sa lalamunan ko. Umiwas ako ng tingin sa kanya at muling humarap sa mga nagtataasang gusali na nasa harapan.

"Nothing." Mahinang kong sagot sa kanya. Naramdaman ko ang pagpatong niya ng medyo makapal na kumot sa balikat ko na nagbigay sa akin ng init. Kahit papaano ay naibsan ang lamig na naramdaman ko.

He stand next to me and also put his left hand on the railings. Then I remember how he hold my hand until this morning. Gumuhit ang malungkot na ngiti sa aking labi.

He didn't let go of my hand. And somehow it feels so good. So good to the point that I want him to hold my hand forever. Pero alam ko namang imposibleng mangyari.

He's with me right now because he can't leave me. He is standing next to me right now because he knows that I need him. He is with me right now because he needs to protect me.