[DISCONTINUED] IDOLiSH7 One-Shots

Everyday.. (angst) | Mitsuki Izumi X Reader

Originally write on 9 July 2019..

[Edited:]
Uh.. this chapter containing about depression, so if you dont like it, dont read it.
Dont ask me why i wrote this kind of things, i myself dont know too.

Then, enjoy reading≈

I feel that i need to stop existing in this world...

I NEED TO DISAPPEAR FROM THIS WORLD! FROM EVERYONE.

I . HAVE . TO . DISAPPEAR .

HAVE . TO!

Everyday..
People wouldn't appreciate what i did to them or what i does for them

Every single friends that i have! They wouldn't even care about me!!

Yes they say "Im worried about you" but its just a words!

Words are easy to say!

CAN YOU SEE THAT IM NOT SMILING?! IF YES THEN WHY ARE ASKING ME FOR A NEW ONE HAPPILY!?

CAN YOU NOT SEE MY BURDEN!?!? IF SO THEN WHY ARE YOU ADDING MY BURDEN MORE?!

Everyday..
I wear a cheerful mask just to make you guys happy!!

I wear a fucking so happy smile just to make a fun memories with you guys!!

BUT YOU SECRETLY HATES ME! AND YOU DON'T EVEN BELIEVE WHAT I TOLD YOU!!

Everyday...
I wear a positive mask just to not make you depress!

But I GUESS IM THE ONE!

EVERYDAY.....
I'LL TREAT YOU ALL KINDLY SO THAT YOU GUYS TREAT ME KINDLY TOO! BUT I WAS SO WRONG!

People start to take advantages of my FAKE fucking kindness.

Everyday......
I wore a long fucking sleeve just to not let you know what i've been doing to my NOW beautiful arms.

Everyday..
I cut myself..

I know its wrong but somehow when i cut my arms slowly, its like my pain slowly faded..

Everyday....
I get insult by you all

Everyday....
I get blames for the things you all do wrongly

Everyday...
You always depends on me

Everyday....
I always be patient not to yells at you when you're making trouble.

Everyday...
I always forgive you when you apologize

Everyday....
I always say its fine when you're TEASING me NON-STOP!

EVERYDAY, I WAS SMILING, TELLING SOME JOKES TO YOU GUYS WHILE IM ACTUALLY DYING IN THE INSIDE.

And TODAY, i was given a cruel words from the PERSON that i knew for 3 FUCKING YEARS.

And TODAY, the people around me also worried about me!!

But the things i hate is, why did they actually LAUGH when im sitting there all alone watching NOTHING, daydreaming all to MYSELF!!

...i've enough of you all..

Your action..
Your reaction...
Your talking....
Your face.....
Your voice......
Your smile.......
Your emotion........

ALL OF IT!!

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