Dreamland

tired

So fucking tired.

Like all the time.

My body feels hollow.

Like an empty field with filled with nothing but dark clouds and dead dreams.

I try to distract myself with things that are pointless. That sometimes help.

I can't seem to get out of bed and do something with my life.

I can't even go to bed without feeling a sense of loneliness and sorrow.

I have to fill my ears with music or background noise of the tv so I can sleep soundly.

I used to be able to wake up and shake off that feeling.

But recently I wake up feeling the same way.

It's a constant cycle that I don't know how to run away from.

I have so many feelings that I can't put into words.

My mind isn't catching up with itself.

I feel...stuck.

Stuck in a place I don't wanna be.

I hope I get out of it soon.

So I can live my life and not be sad.

Such a weird thought... being happy.