KAHAPON (BxB)

Chapter 18

Iron Clad

"Water?"

I couldn't hardly decipher if what was giving me chills and causing my blood to pump more than the usual. The water from the fridge? My knee that was plastered hard enough? Fear? Or his words lately that blown me away?

"Salamat" I replied after Joey handed me a glass of cold water.

Hindi ko na alam kung anong iisipin ko. Ngayo'y nasa condo na kami and being with him in the same place matapos niyang sabihin ang mga salitang yon sa'kin makes me want to disappear in the linoleum.

Nakakahiya, after those touches earlier hindi ko alam kung paano ako haharap sa kanya ngayon. Parang napaka aggressive ko kanina but hey he's the one who ignited it pero fuck the point is I fought back with those fancy kisses and with my gestures kanina parang I'm asking for more or something.

Pinikit ko ang aking mata trying to cease this awkwardness between us.

Nakakahiya ano kayang iniisip niya ngayon maybe he's thinking that I'm a lowkey bitch na isang kalabit lang bibigay na. Who knows those words were sugar coated right? Paano kung palabas niya lang pala yon or pustahan it could be anything but I doubt if it is.

Sa kalaliman ng aking loob at sa mga pinapakita niya ay alam kong hindi. He's been my armor eversince the school year started. Siya ang palaging nandiyan he even sacrificed his reputation to protect me and be with me despite me being a total disaster.

"Just rest Caleb, you don't have to think too much" he uttered again sabay bigay sakin ng ngiti.

Fuck. Don't smile. Sa tuwing ngingiti siya ng ganyan ay hindi ko maiwasang hindi mamula. His eyes could kill me. His defined mantra was just too irresistable. Mabuti nalang talaga at gabi ngayon. Those blushes  in my face were hidden by the darkened room. Blushes? What the fuck! This has been so gay.

"I'm fine Joey thank you!" Sagot ko sabay ayos ng comforter. Nakatayo lamang siya habang pinagmamasdan akong nakahiga sa kama. Hindi ko maiwasang hindi magalak sa kabutihan ng kanyang loob.

Earlier I am suicidal but now I don't know part of me goes lively.

He draws closer to me at muli niyang inangat ang comforter to my shoulder. "Ang ginaw ng panahon you must be covered baka sipunin ka" he uttered. His voice is quite husky. I can smell his cologne right now, too manly and too good in my nose.

"Ahm I think I should go" at naglakad siya patungo sa pinto. Lalabas na sana siya when I suddenly had the urge stop him.

"Joey"

He stops sabay lingon sa akin.

"Salamat" nahihiya ko pang tugon plastering a smile in my face.

Hindi siya nagsalita. He examines me with those killer eyes again. Hindi ko alam pero parang sasabog na ang kalooblooban ko.

He is as if reading my mind right now at ito nanaman his sharp gaze makes me shiver.

"Those kisses were real Caleb" mahina niyang tugon

"Good night!" at tuluyan na siyang lumabas as the door closes.

I hurriedly jump out of the bed sabay lock ng pinto. My gosh Caleb! This night was too bizarre. Natawa pa talaga ako sa lagay ko ngayon. He's totally turning me insane too. Kanina lang ay gusto kong magpasagasa sa mga sasakyan but hey who would have thought na ganun na lamang ang mangyayari. Mapaglaro nga talaga ang kapalaran.

So all this time he's helping me because he likes me? Shit Fuck Teenage Hormones this is just another cycle of my life kung saan muli nanaman akong mahihibang at sa huli aasa. Anyone can tell you that you are their desire na mahal ka nila but this is different. How could he probably love me if I am, I am... I couldn't say the word. We are both boys and whatever. This is different from those fucking relationship gaya ng iba. People would probably judge us at iniisip ko pa lang ang nakataya niyang reputasyon ay konsensya na ang pumapatay sa akin.