Dear Reaper | Jimin fanfiction [Completed]

40 - More than anything

After a brief silence, I nodded slowly. I shouldn't argue against him when he's looking so desperate.

He nodded in relief and suddenly hugged me.

"Wha-"

"We're teleporting," he whispered into my ear. "I can't risk anything."

I obliged silently, fluttering my eyes closed.

"I'll go and make the reservation. You stay here."

He broke the hug and swiftly stood up before walking away.

I opened my eyes to find myself inside a hotel room, sitting on a bed instead of mine. A very luxurious one much to my surprise.

Our conversation just started sinking into my brain only then.

I lashed out at him.

Because of my emotions, I spouted such harsh words and the guilt was slowly creeping up my spine before swallowing me whole.

Because of my stubbornness, I wasn't going to apologize.

Stuck in between the two, I only wanted to end the day fast. And that was to sleep quickly.

Since I didn't have my pajamas with me, I just laid on the bed in my casual clothes and pulled the covers over myself.

I heaved a sigh and waited for sleep to take me over.

But it was endless thoughts that took me over instead.

Will he be punished again for preventing my death? Or will they do something even more horrible to him...?

Undoubtedly, coming to realize that my life would be ending tonight was terrifying. It was a news I never thought that I would hear this soon...

Death has always been such a painful subject. It brought such agonizing experiences that left me fearing it more and more each time.

It's inevitable, cruel and unexpected.

If I was a reaper, I would have been a really bad one who just couldn't stop saving all the people she was supposed to bring in. But that's not right.

Is it really okay for me to have Jimin save me and let him suffer again?

Even if my life was in danger because of him, I didn't regret having him in it at all. That's why I couldn't let him go through another painful experience.

What if... I-

"Lyn," he growled beside me as his hand grabbed my shoulder, making me jolt up and yelp in surprise. "What are you even thinking?!"

I didn't notice him walk back in and sit on the bed next to me as I was too deep in thought.

I sat up, looking at him with a distressed expression. "Jimin..."

"I already told you that I didn't care about pain," he started rambling. "Physical pain won't even compare to the pain I would feel if I lost you without doing anything! I wouldn't even want to continue existing anymore, you dumb woman! You must know the value of life by now... How could you think that there's something more precious than your life?!"

"I do," I retaliated. "I do understand the value of life, but I can't not worry about you! What if they do something even more horrible to you?! What if they erase your existence like they did to that other reaper?! What then, Jimin?! Dying and being reborn is better than you being erased from the face of this world!"

He ran his hand through his hair frustratedly, disheveling it. "I don't care! I can't let you die when I'm still here with you... It's my fault that you're in danger!" His chest heaved up and down from all the yelling.

A single tear rolled down his cheek and I froze in place.

"I can't accept that they're trying to take you away from me... I wanted to spend all of my life with you... Why can't I be with you? Why can't we just be happy together? Just like you said... Why am I a soul reaper who takes away people's lives? Why am I a soul reaper who puts you in danger every time I come near you? It's not fair..."

Hearing him spill all his emotions, I felt even more miserable. I regretted every word.

"If you die, I'll die with you, Lyn. So don't be stupid... I'm not letting them take you. Your soul belongs to me and me only."

His tears started spilling out and he kept wiping them off with his hands, rubbing his eyes and nose, whimpering and sniveling. My own tears started flowing out seeing his broken state.

I shifted closer to him and pulled his trembling body into my embrace, rubbing his back to pacify his sobbing. His hands clutched my shirt at the small of my back and he laid his forehead on my shoulder.

"My soul belongs to you," I whispered, hoping that my words would soothe him. "My heart, my breath, my love, my life... They all do."

"Lyn," he whimpered, his hold tightening.

So it's okay to let me go... They will stay with you when I'm gone.

He shook his head violently. "No! My heart, soul, life and everything else are yours, so if you die, they die with you... So please don't think that," he let out hoarsely. "Don't you dare go up against me."

I bit my lips. "Are you really sure about this?"

"More than anything."

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A/N: I'm recycling the chapter titles and some scenes that I deleted from here on lol. They fit well

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