When The Heart Sings and Bleeds.

To Lose a Loved One, The Sequel.

The struggles that I face everyday
Are struggles that have never gone away
I wake in the morning and what do I see?

A lost little boy mourning to be
I struggle with loss, pain and anxiety
But most of all, I struggle from not being me

Time will heal all wounds, that's what they said
So I watched the clock as time faded away
But it really didn't heal anything

Grandma, the doctor said you're dead and gone
But I really don't want to believe that
I want to believe that you went on a long trip
And sooner or later, you'll come back to me

But sadly for me, that's not the case
So tell me, are you really dead and gone?
My heart is a void now, devoid of hope
And I'm scared to let people in

I will never let go, no matter how many oceans I cry
And I'll never ever say goodbye
Mentally, most of my time is now spent
At the cold dark place where you've been laid

And I sit here crying, screaming, wondering
Why did you have to leave me alone like that?
You were the only one I had left!

The cold Monday night you left me
My entire life changed forever
How am I supposed to go on without you here with me?

No one sees me or the pain behind the mask
They only see the smiling happy boy I show them
How can I let them see the darkness and pain in my heart?
It's so damn depressing that it might scare them away

So instead, I carry on and pretend to be fine
But I long for the day that someone will see
See through my mask and I'll no longer be alone

Grandma, I would give anything just to have you back
But now I know that you're never coming back
A pain breaks forth and stabs through my heart

It stabs through my soul, tears still falling
And my heart breaks all over again
Wishing I could just die so I won't feel this pain anymore

So now you know what it feels like
To lose the only source of happiness in my life
Now you know what it feels like
To lose a loved one...