I tell myself that everything's going to be okay
That there's no reason for all this pain I feel
No reason for all these tears
No use for all this anger I feelOh, the time it took to change
The time it took to see all these mistakes
The life I had I can't take back
The person I used to be I can't becomeThe boy I used to be I can't remember
The tears I shed, the shouts I screamed
And the things that happenedThe feelings that left me feeling in a different way
Yet I can't see why these tears still hurts so muchI'm not the same, my words are unsaid
What I hide is buried deep inside
To know; to love; to breathe; to live; to be happyIt hurts so much to know, to realise
That I'll never be the boy I used to be again
The boy that would always laugh and smile
Without a broken heart and a depressed soulThe one that's true, would always be strong
But the feeling is real and the truth is sealed
Now I cry in the dark, in the corner where nobody seesSometimes the tears hurts so much
That I can only keep them bottled up for a while
I'm the kid with the story no one would believe
The scars are real but the wounds are another markIf you only knew what I've been through
And what I have to endure everyday
Or maybe you could take a walk in my shoesThen you might know how hard it is to hold back tears
And maybe you'll know how I really feel
And how hard it is to fake a smileI just don't think I'm the same in anyway
I don't think I even recognise myself anymore
So where did my soul go?
Where did that happy little boy go?What happened to him?
The one that could make you laugh
The one that was always happy and smiling
What happened to him?
'Cause I'm lost without himI'm no longer me
Life's unfairness and cruelty
The anger, the loneliness and depression changed me
But did they change the boy I used to be?
Oh God, if only I knew...
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When The Heart Sings and Bleeds.
PoesiAn unforgettable collection of life's dark and brightest thoughts.