KATNISS' POV
A screen flashes in front of me, it's Peeta. Just like those years ago when he did interviews with Caesar, his face showed torture.
I could hear Bare faintly yelling in the background, Peeta kept looking down, obviously reading a speech from something
"And if you don't comply, we will shoot this...." he stops, his eyes welling with tears
"We will shoot this little boy"
I watch as they drag Bare onto the screen, he thrashes around a lot but never touching the guards
After a few minutes, when Peeta's speech is done, he looks behind him at Bare. He's still thrashing, then he pulls too hard punches a guard in the mouth. The guard freaks out, pulling Bare off of him.
I sit there, legs trembling, as the guards pulls out a pistol and shoots him. Peeta and I begin to scream almost in perfect harmony
Peeta jumps from where he is and breaks the leg of his chair, running at the guard full force. But the guard is too quick and he shoots him through the leg
I watch in horror as he bleeds out
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"Katniss!" Gale yells, I bolt upright, and notice my body shaking, my breathing is heavy and unsteady and my face is tear stained
"Shhh.... it's okay" he says walking through the door and pulling me into a hug
"It was just a nightmare" as soon as I hear those words, my muscles relax, but the tears continue to trickle rapidly
"My name is Katniss Mellark, I'm from district 12, I survived 2 hunger games, I became the mockingjay, I led the rebellion, we won, I married Peeta, we have 2 children" I repeat under my breath.
Eventually I calm down and get out of bed
"Where are you going?" Gale Asks concerned
"To see Oakley" I say, dismissively. Although I know Gale cares about me and is just trying to help, I don't want him to, he's not Peeta, I'm angry that he's trying to be.
I know I'm being rude by shutting him out, but I don't really care about that right now. All I care about is my family, and Gale isn't apart of that.
I travel the hallways to the medical wing, when I get there I can't help but notice the massive grin plastered on my mother's face
"Oakley's awake" she says, he's awake! I can't believe it, I won't lose my precious baby boy
I hug her and practically run to his room, when I enter I see his big blue eyes light up, I walk over and pick him up, careful of the IV
"You look just like your daddy" I say kissing his forehead
"Does he have to have all these wires?" i ask mom, she frowns
"Unfortunately so" she says
I gently stroke his cheek and smile. His eyes are just like Peeta's, both his and Bare's are, but Oakley's are much more vibrant. Where Bare has Peeta's thick blonde curls, Caspian has my straight dark brown hair.
"Hey baby boy" i coo, he giggles and my heart jumps
"How long until i can get him out of this place?"
"It shouldn't be too long" mom says with a reassuring smile
I lay Oakley back down and sit down in his room
"It's late Katniss, why don't you go to bed?" my mom says, i can tell she's worried for me, but at this point she would have to drag my cold dead body from this room
I can tell that mom understand, because she says nothing else except
"Call me if there's a problem" i nod, she hugs me and then exits the room
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Its early the next morning when i jolt awake
"Bare!:" i scream, i grip the armrest on the chair and begin to thrash around
"No!" i yell over and over
I long for Peeta. His comforting touch, his smile, the safety i feel only when he's here. He's gone! I've lost him forever, i'm never going to get him bacK, Peeta! They took him! They took my reason to live, I don't want to live without him, i refuse to
I feel the depression and stress envelope me in a hazy cloud of sorrow and regret. I need to end it. Now.
I barely manage to crawl to the other side of the room. There is a long surgical knife on a metal cart. I pull myself up and grab it
I hold the knife in front of me and take a deep breath. My will to live has probably died, and now i too must die
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Toast (an everlark fanfic)
Fanfiction*5 years post rebellion* Katniss' life falls apart piece by piece as she struggle to accept that she cant do anything about it. while in the capitol with she runs into an old "friend" and struggles with herself to believe everything will be ok, wh...
