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~sixteen~

~Corbyn's pov~
~the night before~

"Really Corbyn?" My dad yells at me after seeing my grades

"Dads its an 89" I say as tears gloss over my eyes

"Yeah an 89 isn't passing" my dad says as he whips his belt on my back. I cry out in pain. "Stop fucking crying, men don't cry. Your weak, your a fucking weak ass pussy" my dad barked at me as I tried to suppress my tears.

"I'm sorry" I said as a few stray tears fell from my eyes

"Get out of my sight, your such a disappointment to the Besson family name"

I walk up the stairs and into my room. I sit on my bed and roll up the sleeves of my hoodie. I run my fingertips down the faint white lines that are permeant reminders of what I am

Don't hurt yourself

I bite my lip and let out a shakey breath as a tear falls down my arm. I stand up slowly and sulk over to the drawer, the one I haven't touched in months. "I'm sorry Gabbie" I say as tears crash down my face as I think about my promise I made so many years ago to her.

~flashback~

"Corbyn, why are you wearing a hoodie? Its 90 degrees outside?" Gabbie says to me, consent written in her eyes

"I'm cold" I say, pushing the sleeves of my hoodie over my hands

"Bull shit. Your sweating like crazy. Tell me why you refuse to take off your jacket"

"Gabbie I can't" I say as tears start to run down my face

"Corbyn, its ok. I'm here for you. Forever and always remember?" She said, holding up her left hand to show me the promise ring I had got her

"Gabbie I'm sorry"

"Corbyn, please I want to help you"

"Come here" I say pulling her away from the group. I slowly started to lift the sleeve of my hoodie to reveal the red lines all down my arms. I watch as her eyes get wide and her jaw drops slowly

"Corbyn? Why did you do that" she says as her eyes start to glisson over

"I'm sorry it's just, so much has been going on" I say as I blink away tears

"Corbyn it's ok" she said as she pulled me into a hug. "Please don't ever do this to your self again"

"I won't"

"Promise me" she said sternly

"I promise"

"Promise what?"

"I promise that I won't hurt my self anymore"

"Thank you Corbyn. You know that I am and will always be right here for you" she says

"I know you are" I say

⚠trigger warning⚠

Tears run down my face as I remember what I said to her. What she said to me. I look up to my ceiling and say "I'm so sorry that I'm breaking your promise. I don't know of you can see of hear me where ever you are, but I'm sorry" I say as more tears fall down my face.

I miss Gabbie so much. Why did she have to die? She didn't deserve that. Why did cancer have to get her? She was healthy, and she was happy. She made me happy. Gabbie was like a sister to me. More tears feel down my face as I remembered everything. I look at the vanity and see my promise ring. The one I bought her way back when. She has the other one. She wore it all the time. She died wearing it and she got buried wearing it.