anonymous ♧ kim namjoon au

anonymous ; epilogue

I mean, oo. I am nervous, but good thing I graduated being thought that being nervous has great power over you in great opportunities so hindi dapat yun ang ipinapapapanalo mo.

Nakasalubong na namin yung secretary ni mom and they led us inside. Kinausap naman ako nung secretary sa may isang corner, and although nagtataka ako ay kinausap ko din siya.

"You may be wondering why I am talking to you, pero ipinapabigay sayo to ni CEO and yeah, she is already talking to the people you brought today kaya naman ay sabi niya rin na pwede ka na niyang idismiss for today," sabi nung secretary, and I widened my eyes.

"Really?" Nagulat na sabi ko.

I looked down at what she was giving me, and I couldn't believe it.

It was my old phone! How on earth did they think na kakailanganin ko to? Napatingin naman ako kay mom, and she nodded at me while smiling softly.

"She also said you can contact yourself. She said you have proven yourself, so you deserve this," sabi niya, and I smiled widely. I bowed at her and then excused myself.

《 namjoon monteverde's 》

"Joon hyung, seryoso ka ba? Ngayong araw na to, ganyan ka pa din?" Tanong ni V, and I sighed.

"V, hindi mo naiintindihan, e. But yeah, once we go up there on the show, expect na hindi na ako ganito," sabi ko, and he nodded tapos ay inilagay ang kamay sa balikat ko.

Inaayos ni Jin yung earpiece ni Yoongi sa may corner, habang nagkukwentuhan naman si Jimin at Jhope. Si Jungkook naman, nakikipagvideo call kay Chloe. Ilang minuto nalang, sasalang nanaman kami sa isang show but we will have to perform first.

"Namjoon, ayusin mo sarili mo. Alam mong nandito lang kami sa likod mo. You never walk alone, bro," sabi ni Yoongi, and I smiled at him. He was right. I never walk alone.

"If you screw this up, aangkinin ko na yung leader title, hyung!" Sabi ni Jungkook, and I shook my head at him while chuckling.

"Not today, Jungkook," sabi ko, at binato sa kanya yung water bottle na napulot ko.

"Aah! Jin hyung! Save me!" Sabi ni Jungkook, at nagtawanan naman sila.

"Shut it, boy in love. May ka video chat ka pa," sabi ni Yoongi, and he groaned.

"I TOLD YOU, I AM A BOY WITH LOVE, NOT BOY IN LOVE. BECAUSE LOVE IS NOTHING STRONGER THAN A BOY WITH LOVE," sabi ni Jungkook, and I smiled softly.

I know. Nothing's stronger than a boy with love. Maybe that's why I am still holding on. Na sana babalik pa siya. Even Chisae doesn't know what happened to her sister, or where she is right now. Even our friends. Sidney and Michael. Wala silang kaalam alam.

I checked my phone kung wala pa akong message na galing sa kanya, but there was none.

I sighed, and then closed my eyes.

I threw the vase on the wall, habang nagpapanic. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. Bakit hindi ko siya macontact? Bakit wala siya sa lahat ng lugar na pinupuntahan namin? Bakit nasaan na siya napunta?

Sumisikip ang dibdib ko sa kaba. Hindi ko alam kung napano na siya or kung ligtas ba siya. I grasped my chest at sinubukan na tawagan ulit siya pero wala talagang sumasagot at tila nakapatay lang ang phone.