What your heart desires

How to live with world turned upside down

"I swear throughout our whole friendship I have never seen her this drunk." I said looking at Daniela on the floor.

"She won't stop smiling... It's kind of scary." I.N said looking at me with wide eyes.

"I know." I said poking her.

"Should I bring into my room?" Chan asked.

"Why would she go into your room, Chris!?" I asked staring at him.

"So she could sleep on a bed. Calm down." Chan rolled his eyes and helped her up.

"If you try anything Chan I'll beat your ass and send you back to Australia." I said lifting a fist.

"I know you would." Chan rolled his eyes at me.

"I will end you, Chis. Don't doubt it." 

"You should probably head to your dorm now." Woojin said before hugging me.

"I guess so." I patted him on the back before walking outside.

Stepping outside I took in a breath and looked up and the dark sky. 

Looking at the air turn white when I exhale I felt calm.

Nothing could beat the peace I feel standing in the dark snowy street.

I walked around kicking my feet in the snow with a great smile.

Ring* Ring*

My phone started ringing and I looked at the caller id.

The One And Only Prince

I answered the phone, "Doyoung!" 

"What are you doing?" He asked sounding concerned.

"Walking around the beautiful streets." I said looking up at all the little snowflakes falling from the dark sky. 

"I'll meet you at the coffee shop near the dorm." He said before hanging up.

Getting coffee while walking around in this scenery? Yes please.

Only a few more weeks before Christmas and soon after  my birthday.

I wonder what they all will get me this year? 

It's my first birthday and Christmas with Haechan as a couple.

I couldn't control my happiness, I twirled around in the snow laughing.

If anyone was watching me they would probably think I was insane.

Getting closer to the Coffee shop I started to walk slower trying to pinpoint Doyong.

When I saw him I ran towards him yelling, "My Prince~!"

"Hurry it's cold!" Doyoung yelled at me holding his coat tight over himself.

"Lets get some coffee then." I said hugging Doyoung and walking inside under his arm."

"You're such a goof." He said laughing at me while we went up to order.

Greeting an older woman Doyoung ordered for both of us.

"It's nice to see such love in kids these days." The lady said taking the money from Doyoung.

"We-we're not together." I said to the lady smiling.

Her face dropped with question, " Why not?" 

"She has a boyfriend." Doyoung answered for me.

"Oh, I see. You like her but she has a boyfriend?"  the lady asked Doyoung and his face got red.

"No, we're just close fiends." I said trying to laugh it off.

"I wasn't asking you little lady. I was asking this young man." She said looking at Doyoung who was facing the floor.

"Can we just get our coffee' ma'am?" Doyoung asked and she nodded.

"Sure thing, go take a seat and I'll bring them right over." 

"Who the hell does she think she is?" I asked angry.

"I don't know..." He said playing with his fingers.

""Oh, why did you call me and want to meet up?" I asked while grabbing my phone.

"I.... um, I was just bored." Doyoung said scratching his neck.

"Oh, okay.." I said while texting Haechan.

"The coffee is here." Doyoung said and I just nodded while still texting Haechan.

"Autumn?" Doyoung said making me look up at him.

"Who are you texting?" He asked blowing on his coffee.

"Haechan." I said bluntly before finishing what I was typing.

"What are saying?" He asked which had me confused.

"I was just telling him what I was doing. I also told him to go to bed because he hasn't been feeling well." I said sighing.

"Neither have I." Doyoung said looking me in the eye.

"Maybe you should head back to the dorm and get some rest." I said getting up.

"That's not the problem." Doyoung said grabbing my arm.

"Either way we should start heading out." I said grabbing my coffee before walking out the door.

"Do you really not get it still?" Doyoung asked once again grabbing my arm.

"What do you mean?" I asked clueless.

"You must really be dumb." Doyoung said clearly frustrated.

"Yeah! I am really dumb! Just tell me!" I yelled.

"I like you!" He yelled back leaving me standing there confused and in shock.

"Do-Doyoung, you can't be serious." I said looking at him with plead.

"I'm done holding it all back." He said grabbing my hand.

"Stop, ple-please." I said trying to hold back my tears.

"You have so much more incommon with me and so much more fun. You can be yourself around me." He said getting closer to me.

"Stop." I said dropping my coffee and pushing him back.

"I know you have feelings for me too." Doyoung pulled me back to him and looked down at me getting closer and closer...

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"Doyo-" I was cut off by our lips colliding.

I started to cry as he pulled away.

"Why are you crying?" Doyoung asked concerned.

"I'm more like my sister than I thought." I said looking down.

"What do you mean by that?" He asked lifting my chin up.

"I love you both."