thoughts & stuff

a draft i never uploaded

so it's been a year and there's so much i need to tell you.

i met an amazing group of friends ryan
there's noah, gio, sammy, jackson, jaxson, nico, joey, and amethyst. they check up on me and are there for me when i need someone to. they understand i'm stubborn but love me anyways.

samuel and joey remind me a lot of you
they hold the group together and try to make everything okay. they're both so sweet and kind. i love them a lot

noahs my bestfriend, i can always count on him to make me laugh or be there for me. he's been there through some of my darkest times. you'd appreciate him for that.

gio is goofy, he likes to make everyone laugh and smile and sometimes he plays or jokes to much even on the serious of matters because he just wants to see others smile

jackson's serious. he's never really shown too much emotion until lately. he's the helicopter dad of the group. always wondering where whos at and what they're doing. he's protective

jaxson is a small boy, not really he's kinda tall actually, but he doesn't take anything for granted and he appreciates his family. he calms everyone down when they cross the line

nicos so shy!! but he's really goofy and interesting once you get to know him.

amethyst is so caring. she wants to make sure everyone's okay. even if she tries to hide her own feelings fixing everyone else

joeys sweet and caring. and so positive. i don't know how he does it. he reminds me most of you.

sammy is goofy but serious when it's serious. he cares about me and even though we've gotten into some shitty arguments i know i'll always be able to go to him if i need them.

mason unfortunately came back around. and i know you said he was bad. and that's why i couldn't talk to him no more but i got myself into more trouble and my feelings more hurt. i wanna be a good person like you were. i wanna help people no matter how wrong they've done me but i guess i'll eventually learn. i can't help everyone i know that now. it sucks with you not around

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i wrote this back in mid september