Lonely is one constant emotion i've had since i can remember.
see i have this feeling always. no matter what.
in groups, crowds, at parties. etc.
i have friends. but they come and go. and some i don't hear from in weeks. even if i do message. but i don't ever really message first. because every time i do it still takes them forever or so to respond. so i just feel like a burden.
i isolate myself from my closest friends and its such a bad habit of mine because then i'm no longer close to the friends i use to be so close to.
i just feel alone and although i know im not. there's just that one person who constantly makes me feel like it because damn we use to be close but they found better and more important people so they have no time for me, and i use to tell them everything and they were the reason i lived passed some of my hard times. but they gone and left. and they're still here. but instead of us talking for hours about random shit. it's just a silent wave and slight smile as we pass in the halls.
