Feelings Fade [Sequel to Losing Control]

T E N

"I want you, but I can't have you. I want to tell you that you mean the world to me, but I just can't do it"

Dallas
I was sitting in Bucks drinking. That's right. I'm back at Bucks. I live here but do my drugs and crap at the house. Why? Because I feel like it. I started drinking again and again when Buck stopped me.

"Dallas, go to sleep or something," he said and I nodded getting up.

I walked over to the piano unconsciously and started playing.

"I thought we said we're good was I misunderstood? You lookin' at me so cold. After all that we've been through how could you pretend? I'm someone that you don't know"

"I'm so sick of planning all my nights, nights.
'Round avoiding you it's gotta end. We don't have to love again or try, try, but can you tell me"

I heard the door open and I felt that person staring at me but I didn't care. I didn't care at all.

"Ooh, why do we, we have to be enemies, enemies?"

I heard small light footsteps behind me. I still didn't care.

"Forget all the scars all that they are memories, memories"

I heard a gasp. I still didn't care. I didn't care about my reputation. I had to let it all out. I don't care who heard.

Winter
I had Lannan watch the kids and I went to the bar. I wore a tight red two-piece dress. I walked into Bucks and heard someone playing the piano and singing. It was amazing. That is until I got closer realizing who it was.

"Oh oh I know it hurts 'cause I feel it too, but after all, all that we been through, yeah Ooh why do we, we have to be enemies, enemies?"

I froze. That hurt.

"You see me walking towards. You're headed for the door. Why is your shoulder so cold? I know it's hard to speak with all our history, but that don't mean you should go."

"I'm so sick of planning all my nights, nights
'Round avoiding you it's gotta end. We don't have to love again or try, try, but can you tell me"

I wanted to go back to him...I can't.

"Ooh, why do we, we have to be enemies, enemies? Forget all the scars all that they are memories, memories. Oh oh I know it hurts 'cause I feel it too, but after all that we've been through. Ooh, why do we, we have to be
enemies, enemies?"

I heard the sadness in his voice. He was gonna cry.

"Oh tell me why did, why did we throw away the love we had? And tell me why do, why do we love to make it hurt so bad"

"Yeah I know that we can't be friends, but after all the things we been Ooh why do we, we have to be enemies?"

He paused and wiped his face.

"Ooh, why do we, we have to be enemies, enemies? Forget all the scars all that they are memories, memories. Oh oh I know it hurts 'cause I feel it too, but after all, all that we been through, yeah Ooh why do we, we have to be
Enemies, enemies?"

Once he was done he sat there for a while. Breathing and started to cry.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it" he whispered.

"Dallas," I said softly and he turned looking at me.

Oh, God. This will be fun...