You've got me

Chapter 1: About me

Marami naman kasing you know, some people who are been likely as normal, but unlike me. As always been so difficult to have friends and I can't really have that one as permanent.

Yeah, so this is Anabel Ronquillo, but I called myself as Abel for short, my mom and dad owned the most famous winery, kaya we had this called Ronquillo mansion na puno naman nang grapes vane sa aming open wide garden.

They say I look foreign kahit hindi naman. Maraming nagsasabi na maganda ako, halos lahat sila ay nagagandahan sa'kin. I admit myself na attractive person ako.

Sikat kami sa mga winery sa buong Pilipinas, and isa iyon sa nasimulan ng papa ko na si Hernan, the talagang sikat na sikat. Pero eto naman akong paring lagging Rivalry ang mama ko na si Minerva, at ang aking sister na si Daphne, na talagang parang away nila sa akin.

Siguro dahil talagang wala akong naiintindihan sa mga pinaparating nila sa akin, dahil naman talaga literally maintindihan kung anong pinapakita nila saking emotion, so I don't really get it at all. Lagi na lang akong nakakarinig ng sigaw sa akin at parang ayaw nila talaga sakin.

I have this condition called Alexythimia yung ang kundisyon ko kapag hindi talaga ako nakakaindinti ng emosyon, kahit nga di ko talaga malaman yon sa sarili ko, so I can't describe it, that's not literally a mental disorder dahil I'm okay and not that totally psycho, okay!

So ngayon, para lagi akong masya, which is I don't know what's that to me or which ngiti or some sort, lagi akong nakababad sa internet, since is this the only way para hindi ma depressed.

So I had to start to chat with my friends online, and nag webcam lang kami, since I just I got to talk with Leslie, which I know that she was too close to me and I was like damn.

"How Anabel Rama, tagal mo mag accept, ano ba yan!" Reklamo sa kin ni Leslie, eh hindi ko lang na pindot ng five minutes, reklamo na! Wow ka te.

"Saan?" Tanong ko which I don't get it what.

"Sa Candy Crush, nag hihingi na nga ako ng help, which is ang tagal naman Abeeeeel!"

"Oo na, oo na...bubuksan ko FB mamaya."

"Ot bakit naman mamaya."

"May romantic things kami ni Garin, no!"

"Ui naman! Instant landi no Anabel!"

"Oh bakit, ikaw rin naman ah, trying hard attention king mag-papansin, duh!"

"Ihh! Basta!"

Naririndi sya at napakamot na lang ng ulo habang ako naman ay nanggigil (in action: natatawa talaga sya) ako at na parang na kaka hihihi factor yon.

Then I had to browse Facebook now as Leslie requested then I helped her sa Candy Crush na paulit-ulit na lang nya ni nana-nag ang help and which is so got this not good feeling, I mean not in a bad way, ugh! Gosh I'm not good at expressing emotions!

Then before pasukan ng school masyado akong nasulit sa pag browse ng Facebook, since I just really did played Farkle which is enjoying to me. Then sa mga update that is see, Si Garin at si Bettina naman ay magkasama nanaman, Hays! Napasigaw ako na hindi ko malaman.

Glad that I knew they just like that, on the photo I saw one of them, inakbayan sya ni Bettina, and which is that I don't have to be security guard because of them, my chest doesn't have that bad sensation. Dahil doon lang ako bumabase sa pwede kong malaman ang ginagawa nila, since yesterday I was in the psychiatrist to helped me out about emotions.

Dito sa good and bad feeling ako bumabase visually dahil doon much easier for me about what emotion I got, since I don't need to know if I'm angry, sad, frustrated, depressed, happy or whatever, it's just the way that I'm like that by the way, which that I could only base to that.