Saving Love

Chapter 16

Blair's P. O. V.

It's been a year since i've been in Australia. A year since I started dating Hoppo. I can't believe i've been here that long. Time flies.

Hoppo and I have started discussing marriage. Yeah, I know. It's crazy. Jake started dating a girl about two months ago. Her name is Jenny, she's really great. We've become good friends. But yeah, I get a weird feeling in my chest every time I see them together.

Hoppo and I are at dinner and we've been talking about our future. About marriage.

"So you would be okay moving into my house?"

I nod, "Yeah definitely. A house is better than an apartment"

He grins, "Perfect. "

I bite my lip, "How many kids do you want?"

Hoppo frowns, "I already have two kids. And i'm almost 50. I don't think I want any more kids"

I take a deep breath, "Oh. Wow. I want kids. I want to be a mom!"

He reaches across the table, grabbing my hand, "You'll be like a mother to my daughters"

I shake my head, "No, it's not the same. I want to be pregnant for 9 months and give birth. I want to have that special bond. "

Hoppo lets go of my hand and sighs, "I'm sorry Blair, but i'm not budging on that. I'm too old to have any more kids. "

I look at him with pain on my face before standing up, "I can't be with you. I can't marry you if you won't have any more kids"

Then I walk out of the restaurant. I rode with him so I start the walk back to my apartment. When I get there, I cry my eyes out. I love Hoppo, I do. But we don't want the same things. So I can't waste any more time with him.

After about 10 minutes, there's a knock on my door. I open it and see Hoppo. He walks in and we go sit down on the couch.

I can tell he's been crying too. He looks at me, "You really want kids?"

I nod, thinking he's going to agree. But he sighs, "Then I can't hold you back. You deserve to be with someone who can give you what you want"

I bite my lip as tears stream down my face, "So we're really over. This is it"

He nods, crying also, "I guess it is"

Hoppo scoots forward and kisses me then pulls me into a hug, "I love you"

I smile and squeeze him tight, "I love you too"

Then he gets up and leaves. I sit there looking at the door that he just went through. I can't believe it's over. A whole year of my life, wasted.

***

It's been a week. I took a week off work because I had to go home. And by home, I mean America. I went and saw Sophia and Brad and my family. But today is my first day back.

I'm sitting in the tower when Hoppo walks in. He stops when he sees me, "Hey Blair, glad you're back"

I nod, "Glad to be back"

He leaves and Jesse looks at me, "Why are you guys so awkward?"

I laugh, "We broke up before I went to America"

Jesse's eyes shoot out of his head, "What? He bought an engagement ring!"

I bite my lip. I didn't know he had actually bought one. I sigh, "I wanted kids. He didn't. So it's over. It was an amicable split. We'll always love each other but we won't be together anymore"