Soul Librettos

♬ 49

♬ Forty-nine

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Everything feels like in chaos. I can see blurred images, a worried face of Lance, something that is burning. Ang mga pulis at ang ambulansya.

I even heard someone is crying. I am aware of everything but I can't seem to understand why they are acting like that. I can't seem to do anything too like I'm stuck of being paralyzed and all I can only do is just listen to them.

Ilang beses kong gustong tuluyang makatulog but there will always be someone who is going to tap my cheeks to wake me up.

I saw the white ceiling and those people who were wearing white dresses. Pakiramdam ko'y mas nahilo ako sa bilis ng mga bagay na nagfla-flash sa aking mata.

"A-anak... " I heard Mom's crying voice. Pinilit kong imulat ang aking mata at nakita siyang hinahabol ang higaan na aking kinahihigaan habang umiiyak. Why is she crying like that?

"A-anak. Please hold on. Please be strong... " I heard her say. Nasa kanyang tabi si Daddy at Lance na mukhang nagaalala rin sa akin.

I cannot understand everything. Someone put an oxygen mask on me. I wanted to follow everything that they are saying. To stay awake, to stay strong but I felt my eyes slowly closing, drifting into complete darkness.

***
I woke up hearing the continous sounds from the cardiac machine. The smell of the alcohol filled my nose. The blurred images of the people who are standing beside the bed I am laying and the white ceiling and walls are the things that made me feel dizzy the first time I woke up from a deep sleep.

"She's awake!" I heard a familiar shriek from someone.

I breathed deeply because I can feel that I am losing my air even with the oxygen and mask that I have in my mouth.

Nakita kong may muling tumayo sa aking gilid na pigura ng isang lalaki. Bumukas ang pinto ng kwarto kasabay ng malakas na sigaw ng kung sino man.

"Anong nangyari sa anak ko?" I heard Mom's voice somewhere.

"Elizabeth, you need to calm down!"

"How can I calm down if I can see how she's having a hard time to breathe, Brismon!" Mom sobbed.

I felt my chest became heavy. Muli kong narinig ang malakas na tunog mula sa makinang alam kong nakakabit sa aking katawan. I saw some people who were wearing white tops, pushing those people who gathered around my bed.

I saw a doctor moving on my right side, checking my eyes with his little flashlights. Mas lalo akong nahirapan sa paghinga dahil duon.

"Can you hear me, Ferm?" mahinahong sabi ng babaeng doktor na nasa aking harapan. The one who is checking my IV fluids.

I tried moving my head pero pakiramdam ko'y mas nahirapan akong huminga dahil sa aking ginawa. The male doctor checks on my forehead then he looked at the people inside the room.

"She has a fever"

"If you can hear me please close your eyes. Can you hear me?" the female doctor asked.

I closed my eyes telling her that I can clearly understood what she is saying. Narinig ko ang buntong-hininga ng nasa paligid kasabay ng pagngiti nito sa akin. When I opened my eyes again, I saw Lance's figure looking at me worriedly on the side. Nasa kanyang tabi si Chriselle na yakap-yakap niya.

I looked around the room, sa kabilang banda ay naruon si Mommy habang umiiyak at yakap-yakap ni Daddy. Why is she crying like I already died? Why are they all here? Why am I here in this bed?