Unforgettable~S.M

14

Shawn's P.O.V

"Just talk to her. she's never going to talk to you again unless you talk to her" Aaron says as we were walking out the cars

"I don't want to just show up at her house at 6, what if she doesn't want to go anymore" I mumble.

"just, change the plans. Instead of doing everything tonight. Do it this weekend or something. Tonight, just get a pizza. A movie. Some candy and shit and go to her house and tell her how you feel" he says. I rub my head and lean on my car.

"okay, yeah, I'll do that. by the way. You missed your bus" I say pointing to the yellow school bus with the number 4 written on it.

"fuck" he says. I chuckle and tap my fingers on the top of my car

"that's why you have a best buddy with a car. get in" I say opening the door and getting in. he opens the door and throws his book bag at me

"dude why don't you ever drive me home. we live right next to each other?" he says once he gets in.

"because you never ask. And, I'm always at football, but since the season is about to end. We don't have any more practices. Until like Thursday, and besides, you like taking the bus" I say tossing his book bag onto his lap

"I never said that. the bus literally smells like sweat and feet" he says.

"gross" I pull out of the parking lot.

"why don't you just get your license?" I ask him.

"I don't have the money to do drivers ED" he sighs.

"you can sign up for drivers ED here. you know, that, right?" I chuckle.

"yeah but I don't want to hear some bitch talk about stuff I already know" he says.

"just sign up for it so I don't have to keep on driving you home when you miss the bus" I say pulling into our neighborhood

"whatever. Thanks for the ride. And remember. Don't be silly and wrap your willy" he smirks at me.

"Aaron, shut up. I don't even know if she'll let me in the house" I laugh. He shrugs and closes the door before popping his head through the window

"she will. Have fun. but not too much fun, bye Mendes" he says before walking up his driveway. I lean back and rub my head.

"don't over think it dude, if you do that. shell think you're a weirdo" I hear Aaron yell from his window.

"you're not helping." I yell back. He smirks and closes the window. I think back to the day we met. When we ran into each other. I knew from that day, that I wanted to be with her. and nothing is going to stop that from happening

Payton's P.O.V

There isn't any word I could use to explain the pain I was feeling at the moment. Knowing that what Hailie said was true. I knew I'd never have a chance with Shawn.

I'm currently sitting on my bathroom floor, staring down at the blade in my hand. Debating whether I should break my promise to Shawn or not. I place the cold metal on my wrist and start cutting. feeling something I haven't felt in months. I felt a relaxed feeling.

I cut up my wrist until I throw the blade back under my sink. I lean back onto the wall and look at my wrist, long deep cuts, making my arm turn a right red. There's a puddle of blood on the tile floor in front of me. I take the towel that was sitting next to me and clean that up before slowly standing up, I put my arm under the sink and turn on the cold water, flinching at the sudden burning. After I get my arm to eventually top bleeding. I throw my sweatshirt back on and look at myself in the mirror. Seeing my eyes all red and puffy. I walk out of the room and down the stairs. I was about to go sit on the couch when I heard slight knocking. I walk up to the door and open it, seeing Shawn holding two boxes of pizza, a bag from Walmart, and a teddy bear

"I... I know I'm probably the last person you want to talk to...but I brought pizza...and some candy... and if you'd let me... I'd like to talk to you" he says holding out the bear. I slightly smile and take the teddy bear.

"I...Shawn I don't know what to say" I say. my voice cracking.

"let me come in... and we can talk...please..." he says. I open the door more and put the arm I cut behind my back, just in case it bled through he wouldn't see. He comes in and we walk into the kitchen. He sets down the pizza and turns to me. I glance up at him, then immediately putting my head back down

"you know...when I said I liked you... I meant it" he walks up to me.

"Shawn... it wasn't just Hailie who had something to say about it" I say barely over a whisper.

"who was it then" he says

"everyone noticed. Did you not see the looks people were giving you? teachers, students. Shawn even Ms. Barrett said something to me about it. Shawn were just... Its hopeless. And you're going to realize that... and then leave me. and I can't go through that pain" I say, not realizing my sleeve was showing, and there was a deep bed spot, where it bled through

"Payton...don't tell me you hurt yourself" he gently grabs my arm. I look down and shake my head

"I didn't know what else to do..." I mumble.

"why didn't you talk to me" he says, slowly sliding my sleeve up, revealing the long deep cuts.

"you don't need someone like me holding you back. Like Mrs. Barrett said. I shouldn't hang out with someone who will get distracted" I say. trying to get my arm out of his grip, but just making his grip tighten.

"please don't push me away. I don't care what anyone says about you. I don't care if someone doesn't like me talking to you. I don't fucking care Payton. I like you. a lot. And I'd do anything to be with you. I just... want you to be happy" he says grabbing both of my hands.

"that's where I'm scared... you make me so happy... but I don't want you losing your friends and your reputation because of me" I mumble.

"what is it going to take to get it through that pretty little mind of yours that I want you, and only you" he pulls me closer to his chest. I smile up at him, he looks into my eyes before doing something I'd never though would happen

He kissed me.