Step-Brother • e.d

THIRTY-SEVEN

3 weeks later...

Everything is now getting better but it's taking time for me to move on. But I know realize I need to let go of Dylan. But I still felt like it hurt because I had to accept the fact he was gone and there was nothing I can do about it. I know I should be glad that Dave is gone but Dylan is gone when he shouldn't be.

Lately everything feels like it's all falling apart and I can't live with that. I miss my home where everything was in place. Dylan was here and I was with Brianna instead of fighting. Ethan and I would've still lived under the same roof with my mom.

But I messed up and that's something I will live with because no matter what I can't forget it. I can choose too but I won't forget till I can find a way to let go of him. "Macy, we're here," my dad interrupted my thoughts "Are you okay?" he asked and I smile at him but I wasn't

Well I really didn't know anymore. Because every time I open up something has to go wrong.

I get off the car and I see Malia talking to Dustin. "Hey Macy!" they yell from afar but I just wave not my usual running up to them and yell back. "Are you okay?" they both asked and another smile

The three of us walk in the halls but there was Danielle standing in front of me. I wasn't in the mood to fight back today. I just wanted silence. "Ugh you're here!" she said grossed out

I didn't say anything back to her,"You're no one." she said so plainly but I shrugged again. I already knew I was no one but an object. I don't know why I am feeling like this just now. None of it was making sense I should be happy but I don't feel happy right now. "I'm taking to you!" she yells

"Look you win I don't care!" I yell back at her ready to just burst into tears but I didn't. I wasn't going to be weak in front of people at least not her.

I walk right past her as she chuckles and shows her pride. But again I really didn't care anymore. Malia and Dustin catch up to me. "Are you sure that you're okay? You seem off," Dustin grabs onto my hand and another smile

"Guys I am just sleepy," I fake a yawn and they laugh with me. Dustin takes off to his class while I go with Malia to our class.

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"Look guys purple head bitch and her girlfriend are here," Chris jokes and I wanted to snap but I didn't know what to say.

I ignore him and everyone around me.

Ethan: hey
Macy: yeah?
Ethan: how's it over there?
Ethan: just checking in
Macy: good I guess

The whole time in class Chris kept saying shit while I didn't seem to care about what he said. "Are you okay?" Malia taps my hand

"Yeah," I respond but my thoughts were just drifting at this point.

"Today we will talk about grief," the teacher announced "Since it's suicide awareness month,"

People shared there stories of losing others to suicide. So I raise my hand,"Today marks 3 months that my best friend died," My voice breaking

"I really miss him so much and it sucks you know. Because there's nothing I can do about it since he's dead. People think I killed him they think I caused him to kill him self but I didn't know anything. I didn't know he was hurting," I went on

"Dylan was an amazing person with a huge heart. He-," but I felt the tears budging so I run out of the classroom as the tears flow down onto my cheeks

I sit against the wall as I try to catch my breathe. "Are yo-u okay?" someone asked as they try to get me to calm my breathing. "Slow breathes,". he says

Finally when my breathing is back to normal I take a look at them. It was Chris and that's when I quickly back up away from him. I felt panic in my body rise up again and he can see it. "Look- I was just trying to help," he said so softly

"N-o get aw-ay from me!"

He lets out a breathe,"I'm sorry for being a dick I just have my times you know but I'm sorry I really am,"

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School was finally over and I was feeling better. As I'm walking in the hallway I see Chris and we exchange looks. "Did you guys just look at each other?" Dustin says

"He helped me out today," I shrugged

"Anyway I think we should go out," Malia suggested "We can go to Newark and go to a frat party there. My cousin said we can go," But I wasn't up for it. It's where I used to live.

Dustin says,"I don't really like people and crowds together plus it's two hours away," he was right

An excuse we can use. "Lydia says she can pick us up and we will stay with her." That name sounds so much familiar. "She's still in high school but goes to frat parties anyway,"

I start to panic,"I have somewhere to go to. I can't,"

They both look at my strangely,"You only go with your mom on Mondays and Thursdays. If I'm going then you need to be there with me too," Dustin folds his hands

"Yeah and I think it's time I find myself a girlfriend and my cousin told me there's a hot girl named Brianna," she gushed as she shows me a picture of her

"Who's the guy?" Dustin looks at her phone

She shrugs,"Maybe her boyfriend? Or not. Who knows," they looked cute together. His arm was swung around her waist and actually smiling.

I don't have feelings for him at least I think I don't. "He's hot but I'm gay and he seems like he's some type of sex god too. The type to be a player too," Malia says

I just laugh and now they were looking at me strange. "So let's go to my place and get ready,"

I nod.

Macy: i'm going to sleep over at Malias
Dad: be home tomorrow at 3pm!.

I hoped he would of said no.
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Sorry this is supper late but you see planning a 15 that's in 2 months is really hard!! but i'm kinda excited now still really stressed out

thank you for 109k and STOP COMMENTING FOR LONGER AND MORE UPDATES! i'm annoyed it's a lot of stress and pressure anyway bye

peace

-mitzy 👀