Claw Through My Heart

12|I Didn't Mean It

Harry's pov

I groaned feeling movement I gripped my pillow hard

"Ah!" I jumped opening my eyes and realized I wasn't holding my pillow ,very obviously now that I put thought into it, it was Alexis, it was her hip I was holding and I'd just dug my nails into her I removed my hand

she was kinda wiggling herself around I sat up she looked like she was in distress I frowned and stroked her hair giving her a soft kiss on the forehead the more I moved the more I became aware of a tightness

My back was very tight I reached around I felt raised skin

I went wide eyed

scratches

I looked at Alexis she was still writhing in her sleep I ripped down the blanket I covered my mouth

"Fuck Fuck FUCK" I screamed Alexis looked like she'd rolled down a damn hill

Her hip bones and sides had horizontal scratches from me, bites as well from me

but bites weren't limited to her hips no they were on her thighs, on the dip in her side, on her chest, and on her neck all were very dark very noticeable

But those aren't the only bruises hand prints and finger prints were splattered all over her body along with deep bloody purple hickeys

Her chest looked the most abused it was more purple than her natural skin tone

She jumped awake at my yelling

She looked up at me confused she moved a little and hissed "ow" she slowly shifted herself to sit up but looked like she was in some serious pain

"Alexis" I pulled her to me as gently as I could "where does it hurt the most?" I whispered nuzzling myself in her gorgeous silken hair whining softly in her ear pressing my lips to her neck but not daring to kiss so not to upset her 

She looked away from me her cheeks got flush "b-between my legs" she murmured my heart was in my throat and I was having a hard time swallowing over it

"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry" my voice was strong how? I couldn't understand I was literally pleading

I was close to scumming to tears

I lost control last night I was completely animalistic she was pounded into complete submission she had no choice I went so hard she was hardly breathing and my stamina out did hers by a long shot she was practically unconscious toward the end

It wasn't her fault though she hadn't done anything sexual in a very long time so her finished took a lot out of her

"I-I... I'll fix it" I whimpered in her neck I stood up still holding her in my arms I kissed her neck softly timidly testing my waters "I didn't mean to hurt you"

"Harry it's okay" she whispered back she patted my back

I shook my head and set her on the counter she screeched and quickly slipped off the counter I frowned deeply I looked in the mirror her bum was scratched and whelped up still bright pink "oh" I spoke almost inaudibly I looked at her but she didn't look back at me

The more I looked at her the less I could stand myself I covered my face with my hands my breathing becoming unsteady "I-I I'm unforgivable I've violated my beloved I've caused you pain" I knew she hated me she repelled the thought of me

"Harry" she whispered tears were  welling in my eyes on the very brink of spilling over she'll never want me, she'll kick me out, she'll never want to see me again, she'll cut all ties and connections with me, I'll be mateless for the rest of my life, I couldn't be Alpha, I'd be exiled