The Strings Attached

Part 29

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Have you ever had that impulse where right before you do something, it's a good idea? And then once it happens you think Man, that was shit. Well damn, I feel like that was my entire day.

We leave for Japan in a few days then we go to Canada for a few months, with Tom traveling to China at one point and Atlanta. Tom was at the house with the guys since Harry would be joining us after.

I was home alone in our apartment, lounging on the couch, flipping through TV channels finding nothing interesting. I sigh and turn the TV off and sprawl along the couch.

I start thinking back to that day at the end of June when Harry came over and I pretty much spilled my feelings on him. I keep thinking back to Harrison and mines relationship and why it fell apart.

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"Your so inconsiderate Harrison!" I grumble and I walk into my apartment with him behind me. Tom wasn't home.

"Your the one who got the abortion!" Harrison yells and I whip around.

"How many fucking times do I have to tell you. It was a pregnancy scare! I wasn't pregnant!" I shout and take a step forward. "Your the one who was pissed off when I told you I thought I was pregnant."

Harrison scoffs and rolls his eyes. "I wanted to be a father so bad." He shakes his head.

"So you talking to Tom saying you would dumb me if I was actually pregnant is you being a father." I narrow my eyes at him.

"I never said that!" Harrison shouts back at me.

"Don't lie to me! Toms my twin brother, and I'm not deaf! I heard you both talking about it." I say sternly, pointing a finger at him.

Harrison doesn't respond. He just shakes his head and looks away from me. "It's all about you. Nothing can be considering me, ever. Because it's you you you!"

I take a step back and bite my lip. "Harrison, I try to include you but the past month you've been so distant you don't even look at me when you talk. You always turn down when I ask if you want to go out. And you say your always busy."

"Oh my god Alexa! Get the hint!" Harrison shouts. "I haven't been busy, I don't want to go out with you, and I would have dumped you if you were pregnant. I don't want to fucking be with you!"

I blink a few times, holding the tears back. I stand up straight and cross my arms. "So you would rather be with someone else than with me."

"I would rather be with anyone else than you." Harrison says through his teeth, which makes me look away.

"Then leave. What are you waiting for. Go find some other girl to fool around with." My back is now facing him and I'm wiping tears away.

Harrison storms out but glances back in the room right before he closes it. There were tears in his eyes too.

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I finally get dressed and put some light makeup on. I was wearing dark jeans and a t-shirt. My hair was in a pony and I had my phone in my back pocket. I slip on some boots, grab my keys and walk to my car. It's like I wasn't even thinking but I knew where I was going. My adrenaline was rushing through my body, and as soon as I parked the car and knocked on the door I knew it was a bad idea.

The door opens and I don't even go to study his reaction.

"You can't say anything. You don't have the right to say anything. It's my turn to talk." I say.

"That fight, it killed me. It literally broke my heart and I don't think I would ever recover. You said things you can never take back and that would haunt me forever. But that doesn't mean I love you. That doesn't mean I'll stop loving you. Harrison Osterfield, I can't breath when I'm around you. Your the only person I can love, and the only person I will love. And the past few months have been killing me. You broke me, and your going to be the only person that can glue me back together. Because god forbid I love someone other than you."

By the end of my little speech I was crying and tears were streaming down my face. Harrison was leaning against the door frame, arms crossed and his face unchanged.

"Come on. Say something. I don't want to be an idiot." I say, laughing a bit and shaking my head.

"Alexandrian Stacy Holland." Harrison says and stands up straight. "If I could choose one girl in the world to love, it'd be you. If I couldn't be with you, I'd still choose you. I could never love anyone but you. You make my world stop, and your the only person I ever want to be with." Harrison smirks and I just stand there, smiling like an idiot.

Like it was meant to be, like it was something we've done a million times, we both take a step towards each other. I reach out and pull him in, my hands on both sides of his head. And our lips lock.

I can feel the tears go down Harrison's cheeks too, and mine flow from my closed eyes. We both pull away, and look at each other.

"I've missed you." Harrison says and he smirks with watery eyes.

"I've missed you too."

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"So, you and Harrison are like a thing again?" Tom says later that night, as we are both sitting on out couch.

I slowly nod and smile. "Yeah..." I say slowly.

Tom let's out a major sigh of relief like he's been dying to hear those words. "Thank god. The tension was killing me." He laughs. "It's clear you too are meant to be."

I laugh and smile at Tom. "You seem more happy about this than I was." I say.

"Well duh. The tension between you guys was so thick that I thought I was going to crack. And I wouldn't have survived the rest of the year in Canada if you too never made up." Tom sighs.

I start laughing and I shake my head. "Oh my god Tom."

"How did you guys get back together anyways?" He asks, shifting up a bit.

I wiggle my mouth and shift too. "I sort of went to his place and when he opened the door I gave him a speech. Then he gave me one back and yeah." I bite my lip and shrug.

"Okay, that's fucking adorable." Tom laughs.

A/N: yay! Everyone's happy.....