A Pleasant Surprise - Niall Horan fanfic

Chapter 46

Sophie's P.O.V

I slowly turned my head to look at the watch on the nightstand. It's been an hour since I took those painkillers. They definitley aren't strong enough, I cuould still feel every single thing. I need something stronger and I need it fast. Something to end all this pain. I forced my body to stand up and managed to walk into the bathroom. I froze up by the mirror as I saw myself in it. Or actually, I don't know who that is in the mirror. It's definitley not me. That's not Sophie Jonson. That's a failure, a mistake. Someone who isn't worth anything and doesn't deserve all of this. She killed my baby. She killed my baby girl. Tears were streaming down her face, her eyes were big and red from all the crying. She was hurting...good. She deserves it after what she's done to me, to Niall, to us, to our baby.

"I hate you." I hissed. My voice surprised me and I realised that the person in the mirror was me. I was looking at what I'd become. A monster, a killer. I'm ruining Niall's life, his career. He spends all his time trying to please me but I'm never satisfied, I always want more from him. I'm just using him.

"You don't deserve him." I sobbed. My head was spinning, everything around me was spinning. My hands were shaking as I started searching for something to take my pain away. Something strong, anything. Just anything that would make me feel better, that would stop this. I found a bottle, I couldn't read the label, everything was blurry. It was impossible for me to see. I quickly threw the pills into my mouth and swallowed them. I looked down at my hands, they were starting to shake even more. I looked up and was met by Niall. He looked at me with dissapointed eyes filled with hurt. I've betrayed him.

"Why?" Was all he said.

"I-I-I..." I stuttered. I didn't know what to say, I had nothing to say. Tears fell down my cheeks as I studied his painfilled face.

"What have you done to yourself? After everything I do for you, this is what I get in return!?" He was screaming at me, his voice was so loud. "You disgust me." He spit the last words out. A knife through my heart would've hurt less than that. I could hardly see him, everything was blurry and my while body was shaking. Suddenly the bottle of pills slipped out of my hand, broke into a thousand as the pieces scattered all around the floor. Niall's eyes widened as he looked down on my feet. Confused I glanced down to be met by blood, blood and more blood. But no pain, not at all. I looked at the pieces of glass and realised that I didn't feel my feet, at all. I tried to move my toes but my body collapsed on the floor, onto all the glass. I saw Niall's feet slipping further away from me. I tried to reach for him but he just backen away, he started running. Away from me.

"It's okay. I still love you. I want what's best for you and clearly I'm not it." I whispered with a shaky voice. I felt a sudden sharp pain in my whole body, I was convinced this was the end. I was going to die. A panfilled scream escaped my mouth before I drifted into unconsciousness.

Niall's P.O.V

"Thanks lads, I'll tell her you all said hi!" I yelled before shutting the door to my flat. The meeting had gone really well, we got a lot done, surprisingly enough. I felt bad over leaving Sophie all by herself these 3 hours though and I was really excited to see her again. After she'd smiled at me today I knew that she would get better and hopefully my Sophie will back soon. The real Sophie, the Sophie that I'm in love with.

"Soph, darling! Where are you, I have a surprise for you!" I'd brought home chinese take away for us, her favourite. I was also way too tired to cook anything. I stuck my head inside of the bedroom. She wasn't sitting on the bed as she had when I left her. I looked through the rest of my flat but Sophie was nowhere to be found. "Soph!? Answer me, where are you!?" I yelled out. Still no answer. She didn't even answer her phone when I called her. I was starting to get worried. Where can she possibly be? The sound of her phone came from the bedroom. I rushed over to the room and took her phone in my hand, looked around the room. Then I saw her. Her lifeless body was lying on the bathroom floor all covered in blood. She wasn't breathing. For a second I froze up, my brain couldn't understand what my eyes were seeing. "HEEELP!!!!" I yelled desperately, hoping that the others would hear me. My hands trembled as I carefully stroked her blood covered cheek. With tears falling down my face I picked Sophie's body up and laid her down on my bed.

"Niall what is it!?" Liam yelled as the lads bursted into my flat. I started doing CPR on her.

"Don't leave me. Please stay with me Soph." I whispered. Her body was covered in blood, bruises and glass. Everything around me started fading away. I heard distant screaming and crying as people rushed into the room but all I could concentrate on was Sophie. She'd tried to kill herself. She wanted to get away from me. No matter how much I denied it, I was starting to realise that she probably would succeed with it. My Sophie was slipping away from me, she was dying in my arms.