Mixed Emotions

I Wish

I wish I could be the perfect child...

I wish I could be the perfect student...

I wish I could have been the perfect girlfriend when I had the chance...

I wish I could be the perfect friend...

I wish I could be the perfect cousin...

But I'm not

I rebel and I don't know why

I get behind on my studies

I can't stick to one person

I screw things up

I'm not always there when people need me

And I run away from my problems

So maybe she's right

I shouldn't be with him

I'll only hurt him

I'll only break him

Just like I did myself

It wouldn't matter anyway

Because everyone has someone

That they would pick over me

Without thought