To Your World [ Completed:2017 ]

Chapter 8

My heart aches so bad...my tears won't stop from streaming down my face.

Hindi ko maatim na titigan ang katawan niyang nababalot na ngayon sa dugo habang dinadala siya papasok sa emergency room. "Hey, stop crying..." Marahang tinapik ni Ricco ang balikat ko. "Everything will be alright." Hindi ko alam pero kahit paano ay gumaan ang pakiramdam ko nang dahil sa sinabi niya, not because it was the words needed so someone could easily ease the pain, but the sincerity on how he said it.

Words said wouldn't be appreciated without the sincerity of the one who said it. Kahit gaano pa man kaganda ang bawat salitang bibitawan mo, kailangan mo pa ring ipadama na totoo ang sinasabi mo.

"Cry until you're no longer in pain." Isinandal niya ang ulo ko sa balikat niya. Hindi ko rin mawari kung bakit ganito na lang ang sakit na nararamdaman ko, probably because unti-unti na akong napapasok ng pagkatao ni Ysabelle.

"But Belle, your dad..." Halos masapo ko ang noo ko. Goodness! Paanong nakalimutan ko panandalian ang daddy ni Belle. I should be chasing the killer right now. "Paniguradong hinahanap ka na rin nila." Dagdag pa niya. I got carried away by unknown feelings. I'm still Zerina.

Habang palabas kami ng hospital ay muli kong nilingon ang emergency room. Please let him be okay.

Hindi na kami bumalik sa venue at sa halip ay dumiretso kami sa bahay, maraming tao sa labas pa lang. I know what happened, sigurado na akong hindi na naagapan pa ang daddy ni Belle. Nilingon nila akong lahat, their eyes talked to me, they were sorry for me...because Belle lost her dad.

Hinanap agad ng mga mata ko si Tita Carina. She looked so pained right now as she found the way to my eyes. For the first time, I saw her that way, looking so fragile and miserable at the same time. And now I realized things, probably she isn't that bad at all...probably she hated me for she was jealous of seeing my mom in me, and it's too obvious that she loves dad (Belle's father) so much.

For a moment I didn't get afraid of her. Ang mas ikinagulat ko ay nang lumapit siya sa akin para mayakap ako. "We lost him." I heard her weakest voice. Ganito, nagmahal lang din siya at pakiramdam niya ay hindi naibalik sa kanya ang pagmamahal na binigay niya. This is probably my advantage as the writer of this story, I get to know more about the character's emotions.

"I'm sorry..." Hindi ko alam kung ilang beses akong nagulat sa puntong ito. "I will take care of you, don't worry." What is happening? Tila ang pagkagulat ko ay napalitan na ng kaba ngayon. I don't want to judge her character but how am I supposed to trust someone or even entrust myself to someone who've caused Belle so much pain. "Nandito lang ang mommy Carina mo." And that sent me shivers down my spine. God. She's creeping me out right now. Seryoso!

I understand her situation but how will I convince myself to the sudden change.

While the funeral is held, I tried to keep an eye to those who are coming and leaving. Of course! The killer must be just here for sure...ganoon naman talaga diba. Usually, they will check if they made everything smooth and clean.

Nakakainis lang kasi! Possible na kung sinong bumaril kay Steele ay siyang bumaril din sa daddy ni Belle. Pero sa mga taong naririto sino kaya? "Belle..." Napaigtad ako sa gulat nang tapikin ni Mang Rigor ang balikat ko.

"Po?" He smiled at me assuring me everything's gonna be okay. I smiled back although my brain's flying somewhere else. I don't know why, but for some reason my heart started beating so fast, nanindig maging ang mga balahibo ko.

I looked at Mang Rigor, I saw how his mouth talked but I can't hear what he's trying to say. "Hija, magiging okay din ang lahat..." Sa dami ng sinabi ni Mang Rigor ay iyon lamang ang narinig ko. How can people say everything's gonna be alright when you felt like that it won't no matter how you try? Time heals the pain as people would always say, but if you think about it, you don't wait for the time to heal everything, the pain, you should go cheer up and help yourself heal the pain alone.