soon.

lxxxv.

̶ ̶ lxxxv. A NEW CHAPTER.

the longing of september has risen and a woman no longer afraid of what's to come begins to realize just how strong she really is, how happiness is in between the knots in her stomach when the familiar face of someone her heart jumps for walks by.

she realizes how smart she is, walking into a new surrounding, a college campus when she's only in junior high, new faces that hold so much belonging and character she wonders if these strangers see the same for her.

she realizes she's not alone. even with the ache that summer of seventeen brought, she finds herself in the middle of people who's names will lead on memories she'll never be able to scratch away even if she tried. she finds herself laughing, smiling. she is searching less for why and more for when.

a new chapter to a story that already holds the painful, the hopeful, and the dreadful.

at the top of the page, she smiles.

welcome to the happiness. 

a moment she has been waiting to be able to say ever since the ocean of one day drowned her away. 

[ here's to junior year.
where april no longer wants her world to end
but to rather shine bright. ]