Moving in with the player

Chapter 9: Awkward tension

It was the day after the kiss. (God I'm making this sound dramatic) The kiss that I somehow found myself not pulling away to.

The kiss that meant something to me, but probably nothing to him. I mean he's kissed thousands of girls! Why would this one mean anything?he was probably caught up in the moment plus he walked away.

I decided to make this less awkward for him by telling him it meant nothing to me. God I just wanted all this awkward crap to be over.

I honestly wanted to stay in bed all day but it was already fucking 12:00 already. I got my fat self up after brushing my teeth (A/N I notice whenever I read stories they never mention brushing their teeth and I'm just like aren't you gonna brush your teeth?) teeth and washing my face, and walked downstairs in my oversized t-shirt to get some orange juice.

Well shit! Life must hate me. (I don't blame it tho)

Alex happened to be there on his phone probably moving on and already sending texting other girls. Dammit! He noticed me. His face softened. ''Raven, we need to talk about last night.''

''Its okay Alex, It didn't mean anything.'' I lied meaning the opposite because I know that he'll never feel the same way that I do. I noticed a frown on his face after I said that. Probably sad he couldn't break my heart instead.

"You are right, we should just stay friends.''

''Friends.''

After that he went for a jog while I made a five-star breakfast worth millions of dollars aka pre-made cereal poured into a bowl of milk. (creative right?)

I looked through tumbler -the only social media worth my time because of the inspirational artwork- just for a bunch of pictures of pretty perfect tanned girls to appear in my feed. This is the type of people that Alex would appreciate.

I shut off my phone trying not to think about Alex. School was tomorrow, and I had to finish my homework.

Oh god, soon I'll be heading back to my personal hell hole.

A place where lost teenagers go through phases, and start rumors, and theres always that cliche highs cool which happened to be us.

I had to study for an exam and finish up on algebra homework, which is totally smart to assign an exam the day after spring break, considering I waited last minute and I suck at Algebra, and Economics, and Physics, and every other subject out there.

Alexs pov (earlier)

I was finally going to admit my feelings to Raven. I wanted her to be mine, and me to be hers already.

I was waiting for her downstairs, and let me just say; this woman has been up there for so god damn long.

I hear her footsteps and tense up.

"Raven we need to talk about last night." I felt more confident than ever. "Its okay Alex it didnt mean anything..."

It. Didnt. Mean. Anything

My heart sunk and I knew no one would care for a player like me.

"You are right,we should just stay friends." I said. "Well I'm going to go for a jog see you in half an hour." I was already ready for my jog . I would only take these jogs when I felt like I wanted to let my mind out.

Of course she doesnt like me, i wouldnt either.

She probably likes Cole anyway.

I'm so tired of one-night stands.

I wanna feel something already.

Emotion, pain, sacrifice, Love...