The Break up Plan (Completed) [R-18]

26 : Moon

Break up Plan :
You can only see the beauty of the moon when the sun isn't shining.

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Venice Chua

I was sitting alone. Hindi ko na matandaan kung kailan ang huling punta ko dito. Everytime I visit this place, I barely remember that I am living a scripted life.

I wished

I hoped

I prayed

That someday, he would somehow look at me in the eyes and see a future with me.

I may be numb about it but I am not blind.

I may show that I don't care about it but I care so much.

I cannot deny the fact that I love him too. I love him so much that I forgot to love myself back. I continued loving him despite knowing that he is inlove with somebody else.

I love him

Sometimes when I look at Makky, I wanted to feel angry.

I wanted to curse her.

But it turned out that I envy her more than to feel angry.

I am his girlfriend.

I should have the right.

I am entitled for the things that he should do and give to me rather than give it to her.

Ako dapat yun eh.

I should be that woman.

Not her.

But for four years.

A glimpes of the truth followed me like a shaddow in the dark.

Kung kaya ko lang gumising sa katotohanan, gagawin ko. But it's too damn hard to give up on someone you cherish and loved the most.

Nagmahal ako.

Kahit alam kong iba ang nararamdaman niya.

We go on dates.

We celebrate special occassions together.

Pinakilala ko na siya sa mga magulang ko.

But something's still lacking. May kulang parin eh.

He can't look at me the way he looks at Makky.

His smiles are different when he's with her.

He laughs more often when she's around.

He plays damn well when she's seated on one of the bleachers.

Lahat 'yun noon ko pa napapansin.

I just don't want to admit it.

'Yung pakiramdam na ako ang girlfriend ngunit kung ituring niya si Makky, higit pa sa pagiging asawa.

That's the truth.

It hurts me everytime I see them together.

Makky always complains of being bullied by him. She doesn't know how much I wanted that kind of attention from him.

Potatow

Potatow

Makky hates that word.

But that word pains me everytime I hear it coming from Blue.

I drove his car, bringing him home. He had drank too much with the Jaguars. Kaya ako na ang nag-uwi sa kanya.