Rule Breaker [Bryles]

Feeling Lost

Wow I'm such an amazing author who definitely didn't say she had loads coming up then didn't update in about a month :)

Briar POV

After the phone call with Jessy, Myles and I decide to go to sleep soon after, but we haven't really spoken since I got rude to him. I didn't mean to say what I said, but the phone call keeps playing in my mind. I never went to see my dad, all my friends and family are worried, and now I can't even deal with my boyfriend. Why did we ever think this would be a good idea? I roll onto my side and turn my phone on. I squint slightly at the sudden new light, and see that it's 3am. Great. Looks like I won't be getting any sleep tonight. I quietly roll out of bed and throw on some clothes, trying not wake Myles up in the process. I pick my phone up and just grab the room key, I just want a walk to clear my mind. 

As soon as I step outside, I feel the chill in the air and find it strangely refreshing. I just start walking, with no clue of where I'm actually headed. Everything starts to click in my head. How did we think we could ever continue our normal lives like this? We can't exactly go back to the studio like nothing happened, if Jessy knew, then I guess our parents told everybody. But we'd be majorly letting the team down if we don't go back, and I've worked so hard this season. Sometimes I wish the guy who walked through those double doors would just be some unknown jerk who I'd instantly dislike for replacing Jessy, and had no impact on my life whatsoever. I feel like I'm putting one guy who made me feel like crap for months above all my team mates who have always had my back. What if... what if Myles isn't worth it. I feel bad even thinking it, but I'm only 18, nobody actually finds the love of their life at 18. Maybe in the movies, but in real life it never works out. I take my phone out and scroll throw my contacts. I can feel a few tears starting to form in my eyes, as I start to call. Before I can process what I'm doing, it's done. In less than ten tearful words, I just ended it all. "Myles, I don't think we should be together anymore" I feel a mixture of relief and guilt flood through my body and I suddenly feel lost. Not geologically, but mentally. I can't believe what I've just done. I just want my mum right now. I pick up my phone again and call a taxi. I just want to go home...

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Okay so sorrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyy I've been really inactive but I've had zero inspo to write and I'm only just getting back into it so thats why it's a hella short update. Also I don't know if I've said this but THANKS FOR 3K READS ILY ALL SM <3 THANKS FOR READING AGAIN ;)