To Sir, With Love

Chapter Nine - MTMHML

Samuel

I knew something was wrong as soon as I walked inside the room.

I knew something was wrong as soon as I woke up this morning, my heart was heavy.

Parang alam ko na may masamang mangyayari. Pero di ko inakalang ganito pala kasama.

"Annulment? You want a divorce?" I asked, trying to keep my face straight.

Have I really been that bad?

"Why?"

She smiled, "Oh come on Sam, I'm pretty sure alam mo na yung sagot sa tanong mo na yan."

She's right.

Don't leave me. I love you.

"I can't stop you?"

Her mouth fell open, but calmed back down afterwards.

"Sam, tama na. Let's stop this bullshit. You don't love me, you will never fall in love with me."

Wrong. Mahal kita, bago pa tayo ikasal, alam ko na mahal na kita.

"I should've asked you for this a long time ago, but I never had the courage to. Kasi mahal kita, kaya hinintay kita. Pero sobra na eh, sobrang sakit na. Kaya tama na. Tama na 'tong sakit na naibigay ko sa sarili ko sa sobrang pagmamahal ko sayo."

I looked at her, keeping my eyes blank, my heart wants to die.

I've hurt her so much.

"Stephanie, do you still love me?"

She nodded, "I do. I always will, but---

"But you love him more." I finished

Lawrenz. My best friend. Fvck.

She nodded, wiping the tear on her cheek.

"Tell me Steph, you love him. Do you?" Sam asked

I smiled, my heart bitter.

"Alright then."

"You'll sign?" she asked

"Yeah. Let's get an annulment Stephanie."

Stephanie

I glared as he smirked at me.

Kaloka 'tong lalaki 'to.

"Fine, I'll answer your question."

"Okay, answer it."

"Pumirma ka muna."

He took the pen from my hand and signed the papers, he then gave it back to me.

But instead of answering him, I laughed. Hard.

Akala niya sasabihin ko sa kanya kung kelan ko nalaman na mahal ko siya? Hahaha mukha niya! He wishes!

"YOU!"

I ran all the way to my room and locked the door, as soon as I closed the door, iniyak ko na lahat ng pwede 'kong maiiyak. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako umiiyak, hindi ako nasasaktan pero umiiyak ako.

Huminga ako ng malalim at pinunasan ko yung luha ko. I can't be in love with him still, I just can't.

Nung pinapanuod ko siya habang pumipirma, parang sinasaksak ng paulit ulit puso ko. Pero wala na, tapos na. Aalis na rin naman ako kinabukasan. Hindi pwede na ganito nararamdaman ko.

A week after Lawrenz left, I spoke to my Dad and Sam's Dad, sila na ang nag ayos ng annulment papers namin. I waited patiently for the papers, nag aral ako at inayos ang sarili ko, inayos ang puso ko, buhay ko. Lahat.