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BTS IMAGINES (NAMJOON)

BTS IMAGINES (NAMJOON)
Dedicated to #Leiza

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"What is love for you?"
Yan ang kaisa-isang natatanging tanong para sa kanya. Para Kay Namjoon.

Napangisi sya at saka ngumiti ng may pait sa labi.

"Love.. May not remove the darkest past, it can still cover and forget the pain.

Love can be so much magical..

That it can not forget the past but eventually will not feel the pain anymore..

That just simply means... That you have moved on.
Because its so much magical it can heal the pain and cover it with tons of joy." -He answered.

In every word he say in every stories he tell. You can deeply feel how much pain and sorrow he felt

Nababakas sa bawat litanya nya ang sakit at pighati na sya'ng sumasalungat sa naging kasagutan nya.

"Then, where is the love you were talking about? Nasan sya?"

Natigilan sya't napatitig sa kawalan siguro'y naisip nya kung nasaan na nga ba ang babaeng mahal na mahal nya't handa sya'ng isakripisyo ang lahat para lang dito.

"She... She's not here--
She's with him. Happy and contented." -he sounded bitter as a tear fell from his tired set of eyes.

"How... Much do you love her?"

The last question might sound rude but, still he managed to tilt he's head and smile... A sad one tho.

"I love her so much.. I'm willing to wait and die for her. She let me knew who I am--- and I'm f-cking certain that she'll comeback to me."

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Umaga nanaman... Panibagong araw na kung tatawagin ay katangahan na.

Minulat ni Namjoon ang kanyang mga mata at matamang pinaka titigan ang kisame ng silid nya.

Sa araw-araw iisa ang routine nya at nakakasawa nang panoorin.. Nakakasawang panoorin ang walang humpay na katangahan nya. Nakakasawang araw-araw ay nag mamakaawa sya sa taong matagal na sya'ng kinalimutan.

He got off his bed and did he's morning rituals. Maaga sya'ng pumunta sa flower shop buying his ex-girlfriend's favourite set of flowers.

Mula sa gilid ng isang poste ay nakatayo sya't pinagmasdan ang babaeng pinaka mamahal nya.

Kasama ang bago nitong nobyo na nakaakbay sa balikat ng mahal nya.

Tila nakadudurog ng puso na nakita sya'ng nasa ganitong sitwasyon.

Hayaan na naman sya... Lumapit sa babaeng mahal nya at ibibigay ang bulaklak na binili nya ng pagkamahal-mahal.

Lumuhod sya sa harap into at walang sawang nagsumamo na balikan na sya nito at humagolgol na tila ba isang musmos na iniwan ng ina nito.

"Please c-comeback to me... I promise to g-give you all---- E-Everything!" puno ng pagmamakaawa nya'ng sambit.

Sa halip na sagot ng babae---malakas na sapak mula sa bago nitong nobyo ang natanggap.

Ngunit ang hapdi't kirot noo'y di katumbas ng sakit at pangungulila na nararamdaman nya para sa minamahal nya.

Nakakat'wang isipin na kahit nasapak sya'y heto parin Sya't sinusundan ang babaeng mahal nya at ang nobyo nito sa isang araw nanaman na Alam nya'ng sakit ang maidudulot sa puso nya.

What a masochist.

How cliché and ironic to watch the person you love--- Loving someone else.

Ito ang pinaka matinding kasinungalingan ng pag-ibig na akala ng lahat at napakasaya.

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"What is love for you?"

Again with that question..
Ngunit sa kabila ng masasakit na tusok ng karayom sa puso ni Namjoon ay nasagot nya ito.

"Love can be a drug where I'm the victim.. I needed to be cured-- But, there is no cure."

He smiled...

The most painful smile where you can see the agony in his eyes.

Matapos masagot ang tanong nya at nakatingin na sya'ng muli sa tao'ng Hindi nya kayang pakawalan.

Those set of eyes that only belongs to hers..

"May mas sasakit pa ba sa makita ang tao'ng mahal mo at ang kaibigan mo na nagmamahalan?" tanong nya sa kanyang sarili.

What he said was right.. Kaibigan nya... Perhaps band mate niya ang ipinalit sa kanya.

He sounded bitter and devastated on how he said the last line. His not sane anymore.. He lured himself with alcohol trying to forget what his watching.

Tanga! Napaka-tanga!

"Anong meron sya? Ano ba'ang nakita mo sa kanya?"

"Mahal ko sya.. Dahil--- sya ang nandun nung Hindi ko pinapahalagahan ang sarili ko.. Pinakita nya na may halaga Ako sa mundo."

Iyon ba ang pagpapahalaga na sinasabi nya? Ang saktan sya ng Paulit-ulit at ipag tabuyan?

Umuwi si Namjoon ng pagod at mugto ang mga mata... Hindi ito ang unang beses.

Nakakapagod pero nakasanayan nya na itong ginagawa.

Ngunit bago sya matulog ay pinakatitigan nya ako... Saglit akong natigilan.

Pakiramdam ko ngayon na lang uli Ako napasadahan ng mga mata'ng iyon. Sa wakas at nakita niya rin akong nandito kasama niya.

"You kept on asking the question.. I wanna hear your side---

...What is love for you?"

Sinsero ang ngiti na iginanti ko sa katanungan nya bago tumikhim at sumagot.

"Love is full of lies.. I thought it was magical like what you have said--- but the love I discovered was painful.

It was so painful seeing the person you loved the most loving someone else..

Someone whose breaking him---

...And still... He did not give a damn about me being always by his side.
Watching him being teared apart by the person he loved the most"

He smiled at my answer a genuine one... Sympathy plastered his face.

"Don't love him.. He won't love you back."

Those last words of his hit me... Umpisa pa lamang Alam ko na ang sagot sa tanong na gumagambala sa puso ko.
I already know that he won't respond any love for me.. Dahil isa lamang akong hamak na matalik na kaibigan..

I'm only his Best friend...

And I hate my self from always seeing his face even though his not around. Ganun yata Pag mahal mo... Kahit nakapikit kana makikita mo parin ang mukha nya...

I smiled at the thought...

I loved Namjoon so much I want him to be by my side always, but I also want to help him get through his pain.. Ironic, very much ironic.

"Love can be so much pure. It can make you selfish and selfless at the same time.."

---£ΠD---

-Z💦