Damage•JackGilinsky•sequel

Chapter Forty-nine

Trigger warning : mentions self harm, depression, disorders, and suicide attempts. Also violence and murder.

Blair Porter :

The first thing I see when I open my eyes is white blank walls, and the nurse I presume. "Good morning Ms. Porter, how are you feeling?" She asked, with a smile on her face. I yawned a little rubbing my eyes "tired kinda, but alright I guess" I say truthfully, my eyes wondering around the bland room. They send people here for help, but have them in this depressing room? I thought to myself.

"You have a meeting today with the doctor and group, it's time to get up" she tells me, before leaving me by myself in the room. Sliding out of the bed, I changed into some of the clothes that I had brought. Wearing leggings and one of Jacks tee shirts, and the shoes I was given.

I stepped out of my room and nurse Angie was standing outside my room. "Right this way, Blair" she says, before turning around and having me follow her to the counter where we take our medication. "This will again keep you stable and relaxed all day long" she reminds me, we went through the same process last night lady.

"I'm hungry" I mutter, mostly to myself but the nurse turned around and said "I'm taking you to the cafeteria now" before turning back around. I rolled my eyes to myself, last night I thought she was better than the other lady turns out her pep is worse.

"Angie whose this?" a random girl asked coming up to us. She was slightly fidgety, awkward, with a permanent frown on her face. "Lana, this is Blair she's a new patient from early early this morning. She'll be with us for a couple days as as of now" nurse Angie told her, 'Lana' had looked up to me and gave me the best smile she could.

"I'm Lana" she said, as she stuck her hand out to shake mine. It was the first time all day that someone had made it at least tried to give me a real smile and went out their way to talk to me.

I couldn't help but smile back "I'm Blair, nice to meet you" I replied. "Do you want to eat with my friends and I?" She asked, pointing to a couple of kids behind her. I looked over my shoulder to see two boys sitting at the table. Nurse Angie turned and smiled at me "that sounds perfect, it'll give you a chance to socialize" she says, mentally pushing me towards Lana and her friends.

I glanced between all of them and then at the ground shrugging "uh I guess" I say aloud, suddenly slightly awkward about it now. Not that I don't want friend or the company, but socializing lately seemed like so much effort that I don't have.

"Come on, I promise we don't bite" Lana said, leading me into the cafeteria to the first table. "Blair this is Lucas and Austin" she said, once we sat down at the table. I smiled and waved at the two of them, not knowing what to say.

"Hi" Lucas said excitedly, with a wide smile across his face. It was a contagious one so I couldn't help but smile back and giggle a little "hello" I say politely, giving a smile back.  "So what are you in here for?" Lana asked, looking at me with wide interested eyes.

"I had a break down late last night, and my boyfriend was worried about me. I've been through a lot in the past two years, and I have ptsd" I tell them quietly. I wasn't uncomfortable telling them, but I felt embarrassed about my issues. Although I knew I wasn't the only one struggling, everyone's in here for a reason.

"I tried to kill myself" Austin said suddenly, making all of us turn and look at him. Those were the first words he spoke since I'd even sat down. "I'm sorry" I mumble, playing with my fingers. He shrugged and went back to eating his fruit cup. I looked back up at Lucas and Lana with my eyebrows raised "what about you guys?" I ask, since Austin and I both put ourselves out.