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I sat in bed, staring up at the ceiling. I didn't feel like doing anything; I didn't want to do anything. Not if I knew April hated my guts.
I groaned and rolled over, pressing my face into my pillow.
I felt terrible. She probably thinks I'm a jerk, leading her on and then not showing up for... was it considered a date? I don't really know.
I had tried to convince myself that April didn't matter to me, but I couldn't. I knew I was lying to myself; she meant the world to me. I think. I don't know, I only met her a couple days ago. I can't be that into her. Right?
I sat up, leaning against the headboard. Yeah, I could tell myself that. I only met her a couple days ago, I can't care about her.
Yeah. I think I can do this.
My phone rang and I picked it up. I was disappointed to see Louis's name, but I picked up, nonetheless.
"Hey."
"Hey!" Louis sounded as cheerful as ever. "What's up?"
Moping over a girl I barely know. "Not much, you?"
"Not much," Louis replied. "So." I could practically hear the grin in his voice. "How's April?"
At the sound of her name, I knew I couldn't possibly be over her. I groaned and laid down on the bed again. How could I honestly think I don't care about her? She's the best thing that's happened to me in three years.
"What happened?" Louis demanded.
"We aren't... you know, hanging out anymore," I told him wearily.
"Why?"
"I asked her to go see a movie, and then I accidentally fell asleep before it and was very late."
"Oh. Sorry mate." Louis sounded sympathetic.
"It's fine," I muttered. "I'm sure I'll get over it."
"Sure, whatever you say," Louis answered. I pictured him rolling his eyes. "Anyways, me and the lads are going paint balling. Wanna come?"
"No thanks, I'm good."
"Perfect. Now the teams are even!" Louis exclaimed. I snorted. "Bye, Harry!"
"See ya," I murmured, pulling the phone away from my ear and hanging up. I threw it on the chair beside my bed, resuming my staring at the ceiling.
Do you ever wish you could go back in time? Like, really badly? Me too. I wish I could go back and tell myself not to fall asleep. I'd rather be exhausted and with April than fully rested without April.
Sadly, though, I don't have a time machine. It's in the past now; the only thing I can do is to just get over her. Or get her to like me again. Which probably won't happen, so that's off the list.
What to do, what to do...
I rolled over. This day had gone by agonizingly slow, and it was only 6:32 PM. Maybe I could just fall asleep...?
No. I needed to try and clear things up. Yeah, sure, she'd probably just hate me even more for calling her, but it's the only thing I can think of.
She sent me to voicemail a couple times, but when she finally picked up, she had to yell over the loud music. I knew at once that she was at a party.
"What do you want?" she said loudly, making me hold the phone away from my ear.
"I want to explain to you what happened," I said.
"No thanks."
"April, please!" I said desperately. "Just listen to me!"
"I'd rather not," she said coldly.
"Who's on the phone, Amy?" a slurred voice called.
"I'm April," she said, "and it's no one. Don't worry, C."
"Okay," I'm guessing her friend answered, and then I think walked away.
"April-"
"Don't," she interrupted, "start. Harry, I don't want to hear it. Bye."
"But-" I started, and was cut off by the ring tone. She had hung up.
I sighed loudly before angrily flinging my phone at the wall and flopping onto the bed.
I needed to get over her, but I couldn't, and it sucked. It's not fun trying to get over someone you love.
Do I love her? Or do I just love the thought of love?
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Broken and Fixed
FanfictionOne Direction, the biggest boyband on the planet, has been tricked into breaking up, much to the disappointment of millions of girls. When Harry meets April Carlton, can she convince him to get back together with the boys? One Direction has been bro...