Journey in My Mind

My Conclusion About BFFs

I have witnessed many deaths of friendships that where supposed to last forever. Most of them were mines. I lost friends because they left school, or because they where trying to brake me mentally and sometimes physically. I had to fight so many wars not knowing they where already lost. Sometimes I knew, but I kept fighting because I thought they were worth it. I was wrong. Last year I had a fall out with a friend I truly thought was the one. The one I would have hold my child when he/she is born. To be the friend trying to talk me out of getting married, the one I wanted to travel the world with. We had a phone call that totally broke me, she told me she changed, I knew better. She told me this is who she is, I knew it wasn't. However, I let her be what ever she believed she wanted to be. We drifted upon unknown territory. It seemed that there was nothing left to talk about. It came to the point that I had to think about topics to talk with her before leaving the house. It was mentally and physically exhausting to talk to her. However, I didn't want to give up, we have spent so much time together, it just didn't seem right. I don't know what happened but suddenly things shifted again to the better. Sometimes I can still feel that unknown territory drowning our friendship. Somehow we find ourself at the top. After this experience I have come to a conclusion. There is nobody on this earth that loves you as much as you love yourself. I love my friends, but if you told me that every single one of them no longer wished to be my friend, I wouldn't mind. I no longer believe in the term BFF, they don't exist. The worst enemy of a BFF is time, and we can't get rid of this factor. Once you accept this, you become stronger. You make friends, and you appreciate them, and as long as they want you and you want them, every thing is fine. However, the moment they no longer need you, know in your heart that you no longer need them either. The loss of friends, no matter how close they are to you, shouldn't brake you. It will make you a stronger person. But don't forget that as long as they are your friends, you must show them kindness.  My friend ship with that person still stands, and I still want to travel with her and have a life with her taking a part of it. Its just now I want our friendship to last as long as we both want to stay friends. Don't get me wrong I will definitely miss her, but it won't be as much as I would have missed her if this happened two years back. What I'm trying to get at is treat them as sisters until they are not. When they are no longer your sisters know that the parting was for the best.
❤️ Don't forget to smile, breath, and try to be okay, or better ❤️
-Taima47