Day by day
Hour by hour
Minute by minute
Piece by piece
Breaks away
I don't care
Or I care too much
The in between has left
I thought it was done
She was no longer (my) Polaris
But it seems I am still centered around her
It seems that even when I see reality
The illusion that I am living it covers my eyes
Like a being from within
That never stopped believing in chances
Maybe that is not it
Though it still looks like I am reversing my own progress in that matter
When emotions bubble to the surface
Some get through
While some are trapped under a film of confusion
How do I express this?
How do I express this correctly?
How do I express this without something else coming out as well?Pride
Vanity
JudgementI struggle to keep those in check
Even though I'm not sure if they're actually a problem
Or if I'm terrified they'll become one
Keeping this under control
Keeping my mind under control
Is not working well
There is an angry bull in my head
Crashing through walls
Destroying its surroundings
Trampling whatever tries to interfere
I shifted back
Closed myself in
Worrying more about the adventures of fictional characters
In books and tv episodes
Than about what state I'm actually in
Few things strike me as more than superficial
Few things are more than what can be summed up in a sentence
Too many, too much
Not enough, not enough
Too many trapped expressions
Too much is disregarded and sent to the corner
Not enough will
Not enough strength
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Just wanted to quickly say thank you guys so much for reading! Stay beautiful!
-Eris
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