Warning: this may be triggering in the beginning. Not really sure, but just in case, I'm letting you know. Also, after this I won't be posting for a few days, maybe a week. I need to let this sink in.
I cannot speak
I cannot sing
My words have no voice
I can only drench myself in tears of uncertainty
Tears of fear
Tears of meaninglessness
Because
every
Damn
Emotion
Is nothing
Yet it is my world
I feel everything at once
And it hurts so much
They begin to blur together
Until finally
I am left with silence
I am silence
I empty myself of words
I don't want to deal with them
Yet they are all I can use to express anything with
Every emotion hurts
With blinding pain
But I do not let go
I don't want to.
And I won't.
I value life
Although I only value mine because I choose to value the life of everything
And I am a part of that
I choose to value life
Because I value loveI choose to value life
Because I choose to value my family, and their loveI choose to value my life
because I weep for those in deathI choose to value my life
Because I choose to believe that others deserve love and compassionAnd surprisingly, I am able to give that
I choose to value my life because of my sibling
Because they deserve kindness and happinessAnd surprisingly, I can provide that
I choose to value my life
Because I choose to honor my parents for deciding I was worth itThat I am worth it
I choose life
I always will
But I am so scared.
I am so scared....
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I reached a breaking point I didn't realize I had. And I choose life. So yes, I won't be back for about a week, maybe less. Love you guys, thanks for reading and will be back soon.
Sorry this is so dramatic
❤️
Eris
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In the End, I am only Words
RandomAfter I am long gone, what's left of my voice will be words. I've done the best I can with them, so hopefully they'll be alright. I might post poetry, short stories, or other maybe even song lyrics. I guess we'll see. Hope you enjoy. The second book...