Ian's POV:
My feet had a mind of their own, they were carrying me effortlessly against the linoleum tiles; my brain went into momentary shut down - as much as I tried coming up with coherent thoughts I failed; the only thought going through my haywire brain was mom's condition.
The heavy feeling of guilt settled on my chest, like a massive rock constricting my breathing and for a moment I thought I might succumb to a dreary panic attack; the ones I always fought to pull my angel out of.
I was petrified of what awaited me on the other side of the door. The nurse stood by my side giving me cautious sympathetic looks. I didn't need her sympathy. I didn't need anyone's sympathy.
"Please be careful with her she's very vulnerable right now especially with the drugs in her system." The nurse pressed carefully only receiving a nod of acceptance from my part.
She gave a curt knock on the door, then plunged the key into the keyhole. My breath was hitched in my throat the worry and dread heavy in my system.
With just a tiny turn I was flung into my reality. The reality that I could never be pulled out of – the misery that was my life, the peace was only momentary with Violet and I feared for her. I was like a ticking time bomb so close to exploding and the horror of Violet being in my field while exploding was suffocating, she couldn't be a causality of my misery filled life. She was an angel.
Maybe her parents were right to try pushing me away from her precious self.
I shook my head to try thrashing the thoughts away, at least for the time being – I had more important matters to be concerned about.
My gaze met my mother's form hunched over in a chair staring straight ahead through the window, admiring the beauty of the nature enclosing the rehab.
A pang of pain hit my chest as I saw how empty and void her sea blue eyes were. Those eyes once shone with joy. The eyes that provided me sanctuary as a child and assured me that I would always be safe and happy in her arms.
Her form was adorned in a huge woollen shawl even though the room wasn't that cold. Her hair and body had thinned out from persistence against food. Dark circles lay heavy under her eyes.
I took notice of the other chair positioned towards the window too.
"Mom." I called out hoping to pull her out of her reverie and thankfully I was able to; she turned to gaze at me with wonder then suddenly her eyes lit up with recognition.
"I-Ian." She croaked out her voice hoarse from either lack of use or hours of vain screaming, "Come, come." She ushered me over opening her arms widely for me.
I felt slight peace wash over me that she was at least able to remember who I was; pain struck me as I remembered the time she was unable to even fathom who I was but after what seemed like an eternity she was able to recognise me and started apologising profusely and showering me in kisses which I accepted with open arms.
I took long strides to reach her letting her envelope me in her thinning arms. I could feel all my worries dissipating into thin air. I was craving this hug.
"Why didn't you come visit me earlier? I thought you didn't want to see me again, my baby boy." Mom's voice was hoarse with thick emotions her eyes gurgling with unshed tears.
I could feel the horrendous feeling of guilt hit me full force again. I knew that I was late for my visit but I always found a huge difficulty in seeing my mother here, in a rehab. The realisation of how much I failed her and dad always dawned on me and the ache I felt was almost unbearable.
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Stroke
Teen FictionPreviously known as "Mental Love." 17 years old Violet Cavalli considers herself an outcast for lack of better words, but in her defence most of the people who meet her think so, being unfortunately stuck with Asperger's, she was prevented from doi...