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I'll get Tyler
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[Josh's POV]
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Tyler could help cheer her up...
Where is Tyler?
I hadn't even tried to stop [Y/n] from running away as I raced off to find Tyler.
That's such an idiot move.
[Y/n POV]
I slow down, seeing that Josh hadn't been following me. I force out a heavy sigh as I fixed my eyes up onto the empty night sky. There was no moon present that night, just a few fighting stars that the glow of city lights couldn't hide. A tear slowly finds its way down my flushed cheek.
Why am I so weak?
"God, you're helpless Y/n." I whispered at myself. I sniffed and wiped away the tear that found its way to my chin. Reluctantly I continued my way to the carpark.
The word dread couldn't even describe how I was feeling. I was terrified. I was shaken to the bone at just the thought of having to go back to the house I once called 'home.' The place I go to now is not a home, it is frightening. No matter how hard I try, I just can't wake from the nightmare that it is. A slow and continuous loop of horror and pain from the one I used to love.
I leaned back against the pale brick wall dividing the carpark from the stadium, bruises on my back aching from the pressure. I roll up the jacket sleeve on my right arm, staring emotionlessly at the swirls of green and purple tainting my skin. Gently, I traced my pointer finger over each bruise.
Everything was so dark. The sky was dark, the yellow street lights were dim. Even the few cars still parked were dark shades of blue and black. The darkest thing however, were the thoughts fogging my mind. I sigh and slide down the wall, sitting onto the dusty surface of the pavement.
Tears begin to stream down my face, staining my cheeks.
I don't want to go back.
I can't go back.
Not while she's there.
I lean my head down in between my legs, cupping my aching head in my shaky hands. I cried silently into my palms.
Why am I like this.
Why do I cry so easily.
You're being over dramatic.
People have worse lives.
I'm an idiot..
I'm so stupid.
"Stupid... s-stupid... stupid." I croaked.
Weak.
The one word replays over and over, overpowering any other thoughts my brain constructed. It was as if the voice was a record, and my mind itself was the broken record player.
"Weak. Weak. So stupid and WEAK!" I shouted up to the night sky. Sobs rattled throughout my chest as I tucked my head back in between my legs.
No one was around so I didn't care about yelling. I took the chance to let all of my built up emotions soar out of me through my screaming words.
Eventually, I calmed myself from my breakdown and rested the back of my head on the wall. I sat there, shakily breathing.
In..
And out.
You're over reacting y/n.
In...
And out.
Calm down.
In....
And out.
Don't give up just yet.
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Always -Josh Dun x Reader
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