Always -Josh Dun x Reader

Chapter 13

I'm listening to Time To Say Goodbye by Tyler while writing this, gosh this song always breaks my heart.

Also if you guys haven't noticed whenever I put things in italics it's the thoughts the person is having.

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~where it was left off~

I quickly place them on top of my bunk in the other room and then walk out to the three guys...

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Wait

I stop my foot, hesitating to step out of the room.

What if Mark wants me gone?
I don't even think Josh or Tyler have even told him about me.
Oh god.
He is going to want me gone
and I'll have to go back to... her.

I can't even imagine how she is going to react, I mean I haven't even read any of the growing amount of texts she has sent me.
What am I going to do.

I feel as if she will literally kill me.

I snap out of my fearful thoughts as I hear a voice, Marks voice.

"So why haven't I heard anything about that girl that just walked in with you Josh? I'm not trying to be rude, but you cannot just be bringing in random fans." I hear Mark's muffled voice say in annoyance.

I can feel the fear grow from Josh and Tyler, even from being in a separate room.

"Um well, sh-she's a friend. She really needed my, well our help." Josh explains nervously.

"She really needs help Mark. She's not in a good place." I hear Tyler says more confidently, joining in with josh.

My stomach does flips and my heart hammers against my chest.

"Why does she need your help? Was she hurt?" Mark says, his voice softening yet sounding more curious.

"I-I don't know if she'd like us telling you" Tyler says.

Before anyone has the chance to speak up I walk in.

"I-it's ok, you can tell him" I say with little confidence, my head tilted down in embarrassment.

My body starts to shake.

"Are you sure?" Josh asks soothingly as he places a hand on my shoulder.

No

"Yes" I say fighting against my thoughts.

"Okay" Josh says reluctantly as he looks at Tyler. Tyler nods at Josh, ushering him to speak.

Josh explains everything to Mark, his voice slightly shaking as he finishes.

I look up at them, fear of judgment overwhelming me. I shake uncontrollably and my heart feels like it's going to break out of my chest any second. I lower my head again, to afraid and ashamed to look at them.

"I-If you want me gone it's okay. I'll figure things out, I mean I have for the past five years. I'll survive." I mutter out, my voice wobbling like jelly.

I rub my hand up and down my left arm, trying to calm my nerves. The sleeve of my long sleeved shirt rolls up my arm slightly, causing the bruises and marks littering my skin to poke out.

Josh catches a short glimpse of my exposed arm.

"No, you won't!" He says unexpectedly as he softly grabs my wrist.

"What are you...doing." I start but slowly stop.

Josh exposes the horrible damage done to me.

"Did you... did you do this to yourself?" Josh asks almost as if he were scared. He looks intently into my eyes.

I start to tear up and look away.

"N-no" I croak out.

"Did your mom do this?" He asks lowly.

I look back up with my watery eyes, seeing Josh's beautiful concerned, brown ones staring right back into mine. My bottom lip twitches.

"Yes" I say barely in a whisper, afraid if I say it too loud the whole world will hear.

All of their faces drop as I say that one word.

Josh slowly lets go of my wrist, and then tightly envelopes his arms around me. He rests his head in the crook of my neck.

Pain shoots through my ribs but I choose to ignore it.

"I'm so sorry... I didn't realise how bad it was." He says softly next to my ear.

I feel his warm breath tickle against my neck; and for once, I feel totally and utterly safe.

"It's... it's ok, Josh." I say as I wrap my own arms around his chest.

"I know I haven't known you for long" he says even quieter than before. "But I am going to be here for you, always."

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Oooh boy I know this chapter wasn't long but I'm finally starting to get the story going and not just having filler chaptersSsSs.

Also I feel like I didn't write this properly so sorry if I go back and edit it later.