R A G E

s.s.s

I miss you, too, sometimes.
But sometimes I don't.
Because I have people who can help me through this, too.
I guess what hurts the most is this feeling of being unwanted. And knowing I'll be replaced. Or that I already am replaced.
I guess what hurts the most is hearing that you miss me, too--and hearing that you don't want to do anything about it. That you regretted what you did, but you didn't care enough about me to do anything about it.
It hurt to hear you wanted to leave it up to fate. Everyone knows that is just an excuse for you to not have to fix things. You realize I can't do anything about this: you left me. You kicked me out and cut me out. It's YOU who broke things, it's YOU who would have to fix things.
Are you afraid to try? What's holding you back? Maybe it's that you only regret hurting me, but not dumping me. That's okay, I guess.
Or are you just lazy?
I don't think wondering is going to change anything.
I think it makes things worse, to love you this much.
And I need to accept I'll never get answers...so why should I keep asking these questions?