Her Nightmare's Hell

Sixty-Eight

[2 years later] 

"If everyone agrees on our plan this year," I paused and looked at each of them. "Meeting adjourned," I dismissed all of them. 

Everyone stood up from their seats and hand shaked each other. After that, they all left the board meeting, leaving me alone here. I leaned my back against the chair then stared blankly in front of me. 

How long has it been since I saw them? It's been a long time hasn't it? I'm talking Saira and Veronica. Simula ng alokin ako ni Tita Aida about running the family business, I left two people that were important to me. 

I wonder how they are doing? 

It's been three days ever since Doc Xian finished the surgery on Saira and Veronica. Hanggang ngayon wala pa rin silang malay at ang tanging oxygen lamang nila ay galing sa oxygen mask they put on them. 

Pareho silang inilagay sa iisang kwarto nila Tita Sachi at Zie. Malaki rin kasi ang kwartong nakuha nila para sa kanilang dalawa kaya naman they decided to that instead. Anyway, I'm alone in this room with the both of them. I told everyone to give me a minute with Saira and Veronica kahit na wala pa silang malay. 

I just want to be with them before I leave for New York City. Yup. Babalik na ako sa New York City and am accepting Tita Aida's offer of taking over the family company. I know, I am running away from everything again like always, but I don't want them to remember the horrible thing that happened to them. 

I walked slowly between their beds, then looked at them both. Hindi ko maiwasang malungkot sa nangyare sa kanilang dalawa. I don't know if I can ever forgive myself for letting this happen. Yeah, i wanted someone to get hurt, but they weren't included in that list. 

Yet here they are lying down in this awful place.. 

"I hope there will come in your life the both of you can forgive me," I mumbled. "I know sorry is not enough para masuklian ang mga ginawa niyo para sa'kin. But, for now, I hope the both of you can accept my apology," malungkot kong sabi. 

"Alam niyo, ang dami kong natutunan sa inyong dalawa," tumingin ako kay Saira. "Isipin niyo, nung hindi kayo dumating sa buhay ko, para akong walang buhay. Yung tipong sunod-sunuran lang sa pamilya. Yung takot na maiwan dahil wala ng makakasama sa buhay. Tapos nung dumating kayo-" lumingon ako kay Veronica. "Para akong nabigyan ng dalawang Guardian Angel. Ayon nga lang, you guys were the fallen Guardian Angel. Lahat ginagawa para lang makita akong masaya at nananalo." 

Humakbang ako palapit kay Veronica tsaka umupo sa gilid ng kama niya. Bigla kong naramdamang tumulo ang mga luha ko. I tried to wipe it though. 

"Ah.. Sorry. Umiiyak na naman ako sa inyo," I sniffed. "Sorry ah. Talagang nagiging ganito na ako pag dating sa inyong dalawa. Dinaig niyo pa ang pagiging syota ko sa dami-daming iniyak ko sa inyo," biro ko sa kanilang dalawa. "Ngayon na iniisip ko na, all those times we spend together, I've never really truly said my thank, huh? Lagi kong nakakalimutang magpasalamat sa mga pagsasalo niyo sa'kin na dapat si Zain ang gumagawa," I smiled bitterly. "B-but I guess that's why the both of you existed, right? P-pero-" 

I couldn't continue what I was going to say when I felt like something was stopping me from doing so. Tinakpan ko ang bibig ko't iniyuko ang aking ulo at umiyak. 

"I-I know, I-I shouldn't be blaming myself anymore. B-but I couldn't accept it. I can't accept the reality that the both of you might not wake up anymore d-dahil sa kagustuhan kong pagbayaran ng mga tao ang ginawa nila sa'kin," hirap kong sabi. "K-kung pwede lang, mas gugustuhin ko pang ako na lang ang nasa pwesto niyo ngayon. Kaso kahit anong h-hirap kong gawin 'yon, s-sadyang hindi nangyayare," napahawak ako sa bedsheet ng kama ni Veronica. "P-please.. Saira.. Veronica.."