Meeting Cecille

Chapter 25

Chapter 25

Rae's POV

Nakakabingi ang katahimikan sa loob ng kwarto ko sa ospital. Kokonti na lang ang ilaw na nakasindi sa hallway. Pati sa kwarto ay ganun din, tanging ang ilaw malapit sa pintuan ng CR ang bukas. Ang tanging maririnig mo lang ay ang madalang na pagdaan ng mga nurse na nakaduty. Tulog na rin ang mga bantay ko. Kahit na mahigpit sa ospital at isang bantay lang talaga ang nasa patakaran, nagawa pa ring magbantay sakin pareho nila mom at dad.

I bet they pulled some string. Perks of having a name. An important name.

Muli kong kinapa ang isang piraso ng papel na pinunit sa notebook at binasa ang nakasulat dito. Hindi ko pa natatapos basahin ito ulit ng Makita ko na bahagyang gumalaw si mom. Mabilis kong tinago ulit sa ilalim ng kama ang papel.

"Do you need something baby?" asked mom in her sleepy voice. I know she's also tired. Di pa sila umuuwi ng bahay since they got here. Ang alam ko dito na nga rin sila nagpalitng damit sa ospital.

"No mom. Go back to sleep. I will too" mahina kong sabi. She stayed by my side all the time. I haven't seen her touch her phone since they got here. And It's a surprise for me. Seems like mom stopped her world in business just to be here. And it makes me happy.

I have a mom after all.

"Okay. Go, take a rest now so you'd be ready when you're discharge tomorrow" yes. Pwede na daw akong lumabas sabi ng doctor. I heard clear naman daw ang test result ko for any internal damage. The doctor says that its good that they brought me immediately here. Dahil dun wala akong nakuhang impeksyon nung masugatan ang balikat ko sa pako.

Pinatong ko ang braso ko sa ulo ko at tinitigan ang puting kisame.

I still can't believe that me and my mom? We are okay now. It's as if we didn't had any gap.

Medyo hindi pa ko sanay pero siguro lilipas din yung strange feeling na nararamdaman kop ag malapit sya.

Inalala ko yung nangyari kanina.

Flashback...

"We love you baby" mom said then she hug me. Dad come at us too then hug us both.

"I love you too mom and dad" it was a long tight warm hug. She hold both my cheeks after she pulled away.

"Baby I know, I have done a lot of things that I need to be sorry. I have never been a good mother to you and to your brothers and sisters. Believe me baby, I love you and all I want for you, my kids, is to have best thing that life can offer. But I was wrong. Pinagdamot ko sa inyo yung bagay na talagang kailangan nyo. Yung oras ko, yung pag-aalalaga ko. At pinagsisisihan ko na yun. I hope I'm not to late to be a mother to you" I'm near to crying. I'm choking by the lamp in my throat for trying hard not to cry. But I can't help it.

Totoo pala na pag umiyak na sa harap mo yung magulang ko hindi mo mapipigilan ang sarili mo na maiyak din. Di ako naniniwala dun dati.

This is the confrontation that we all needed and we should've done before.

"I hate you mom. And you know that. I don't know how many time I've told that to you. But then, I realized. I don't really hate you. I just hate that you don't have time for me, for us. That you make me feel that we are your last priority. You were not there in my special days. Birthdays. Graduation. Play. Presentations. There are countless times that I wished you'd be there. But you weren't. until I get used to you, not being around anymore. I thought I don't need you anymore. That its okay not to have you anymore. But I was wrong. I need you mom. And I've been trying for so long to get your attention. And guess what? I did. I finally did" I laugh while crying. I looked like crazy. But who cares? My mom is here. She's here. Right now. At my side.