Bitch
Go die
You're a slut
Kill yourself already
Thats all I hear from anyone these days. I've started to consider some things for me not to forget the heart ache, but to bring in a new pain. My arms are lined with cuts. I've been crying myself to sleep. I've become addicted to cutting, and the painkillers. I can't stop. I want to but I just can't. I look over to Megan and Drew every time I'm about to take one. I think about how they would feel without parents. Then I think of the rumors, my life, and of Drew. He was the only person who kept me going. I've been talking to Sydni and Amanda a lot lately but it's not helping the pain.
Some days I want to end it all
Other days I want to be a mother for my children
And sometimes I wish I could go back and fix everything before my life screwed up.
Not having sex with Drew
Not becoming Drew's girlfriend
Not being Drew's friend
Not moving to Alabama
But then I remember how lucky I was to have him in my life.
How beautiful our children are
I just wish he was here to see them
I've quit the counseling. It hasn't been helping
All I have to say is
If things get worse
I'll be with Drew once again
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Not really a chapter and I'm so sorry! It's just a filler and going into Alex's mind.
Hopefully I'll find time to write this week because all my friends are going to be out of town...😂
I'll be sitting alone watching Dan and Phil in my room.
Bye!✌️
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Where We Are Now (COMPLETED) #WATTYS2016
Teen Fiction*warning* Suicidal and sexual content 16 year old Alex goes through deep depression while she moves across the country to Birmingham, AL. Being the new girl at school isn't fun. Her first friend is a guy who she never thought she would fall for.
