Adopted by Stally

Chapter seven

||Mercy's POV||
! TRIGGER WARNING !

I never to thought that my life would change so fast. I still feel really sad though. You may think but why? You have a good life? Yeah but I have depression and that's it, I can't change that no matter what. I start to cry in my room and I engulf myself in my blankets. I get up and head to my drawer of my desk and I pull out a razor. As it hits my skin I make slow deep cuts I make deep cuts before I hear a knock at the door it's ally. You may ask how do you know? Because she always does a code so I know it's her. I very quickly put away my razor and dry up my tears fast.

"Come in" I say tiredly
"Hey-wait what's wrong?" Ally asks
"Nothing I'm just tired"

Key word tired
T- torn
I- insecure
R-restless
E- engulfed
D- dead inside

"Mercy follow me" she says

I stay quiet and follow ally to the living room. She gives me the look I'm sorryI give her the look what do you mean?

"Stevie we- she has something to tell you" ally says fiddling with her fingers and not making eye contact.

I understand what she means so I of course look sad

"Well?" Stevie says

I don't use words I have a better way. I slowly roll up my sleeves. She looks so sad and starts to cry. I have one way to deal with things run I run to my room and lock the door. I hear someone walk up to the door

"Hun I need you to unlock the door and talk to us we know your name not your story" ally says
"I made Stevie cry ally!" I say sounding like a little child
"No it's what you did to yourself that made her cry it's not your fault" ally says

I slowly walk towards the door and unlock it. I walk past ally ignoring her sorry look and then sitting down on the couch.

"I was bullied, up to this point in my life is the first time I'm not bleeding everyday my bullied made sure I would bleed. So now I do it to myself when I'm sad. I know it's bad. I've had depression for four years now. And I refuse to take the medication for it cause all it does is make me happy. I don't deserve to be happy. I love you guys so much I I I just don't know how to be happy" I tell them

Stevie hugs me. I break down and start to shake and cry in Stevie's arms. Ally comes up and hugs us. So i just sit there getting held by my idols crying. I'm so weak I'm ugly
Fat
Stupid
Not worth anything
Horrible
And more Those thoughts never leave. And they won't. Ever. But Stevie and ally help me they are my happy place an I will tell them when I'm ready to.