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Chapter 2

Connors P.O.V.

     When I meet most people I get asked one of three questions ,besides my name,which is Connor Franta. The questions are;

Why Youtube?

Wait, you're gay?

A pretty boy like you shouldn't be wasting his life smoking.

Ok, I know that the third one is not a question, but I still get told that a lot. Here are my responses;

I want to.

Yep, deal with it.

Everyone wastes their life on something.

Yeah, that's pretty much my life summed into three questions and responses. My mom cries too much, I've never met my father, and I'm not sure if I have any siblings. I live in Perth, Australia (most of the time). I'm gay, but I've never met any guys.
     Of course I've met boys who are gay, but none that are "for me". I have dated a few girls, but that was before I finally convinced myself that it's okay not to "swing that way".

     I would've graduated from high school last May but I dropped out. One morning I woke up and said "Fuck it," since then I have never been back.
     Sure, I smoke but only because I want to, not because I want to be "cool". I also drink because I want to. The only time I really clean up or use any effort is on Youtube. My viewers only have to see me for five relatively happy minutes on Mondays. They don't know any of the shit I go through. I guess It's better that way.
     I am not depressed, I just don't care. I spend all my time pushing emotions out and now I feel nothing.

     I sneak into some clubs every now and then. I'm 20 so I can legally drink. I do whatever the hell I want. I sleep wherever I happen to be when I'm tired. I'm not homeless, I just rarely sleep at my house. Simple as that. I guess that's all there is to know about me.

(Thanks for reading Chapter 2, see ya on chapter 4 ~Lyndsi)