Fairy Tales Don't Exist

Chapter 4

Chapter 4:

Stepping in the back, there’s a corridor where the boy’s bathroom is on the left and the girls on the right. There are a couple of people standing in the corridor leaning against walls, finding my way to the bathroom, someone catches a hold of my elbow and yanks me. I fall back into their chest. The first thing I smell is stale beer breath , I wanna gag , I turn to see the person that has a hold of my arm and it’s an older man , he has longish hair and is probably around moms age , he’s not bad looking , he suddenly puts his other hand lower on my back , I freeze and he pulls me closer to him , I start pulling away from him , “please , just get your hands off me !” I say looking around for someone to help me, the music is so loud in the bar and everyone in the crowded hallway is too busy with their own business to notice me.

“Oh c’mon you pretty lil' thing , let’s go out back and have some fun .” the man says as he winks at me and moves his hand lower on my back, he’s just above my ass at this point . I start to struggle, and start pulling outta his grip.

“Greg! Can’t you find anyone your own age, you dirty old bastard! Leave her alone!” I hear a female voice behind me, but Mr Greg here holds me tight so I can’t turn to see who it is .

“Oh hunny I’m not THAT old and hey don’t be jealous , you can join us if you like sweet thing! “ I see Greg wink at whoever is behind me.

Then I’m pulled out of Greg’s arms and I’m looking at the most beautiful green eyes I’ve ever seen , its the guy from the corner booth that I was “ogling” he looks down at me with one hand on my shoulder and one hand on my cheek he says softly “Are you okay ? Did he hurt you? “ I'm out of breath not sure what just happened I stutter “ I…I ….No…I mean no… he didn’t hurt me “, “Good ,” he says looking up from me over my shoulder , his jaw tenses and I can see his eyes turn dark , glaring with so much hatred over my shoulder at Greg ,

“Greg what the fuck do you think you’re doing?? Didn’t you see she didn’t want you to touch her?? “ The hot guy yells out . I flinch at the anger in his voice.

I don’t hear the rest, it’s just too much to deal with at the moment , I run into the bathroom , and walk over to the sink and mirror . Holding my weight on my elbows on the counter top, I put my hands over my face , just trying to calm my breathing, my heart is going so fast – I can feel my hands shaking . I kept thinking, “why did I freeze?” growing up at the gym, I did kick boxing and a few self-defense classes . I should’ve yelled or something but I just froze, “arg …I’m so weak!”

I hear the door open and shut, I hear yelling outside –the arguments obviously still going on, I can’t see who came in because my hands are still over my face . I’m still leaning over the counter, I hear footsteps , then a soft hand start rubbing my back gently . I recognize the voice as the girls that told Greg to leave me alone.

“Are you okay? You wanna talk bout it? He tried the same thing with a couple other girls, he wont try with me though, he knows my pops will fuck him up if he tried to…” she trails off. I stand up and see the girl from the table I was looking at across the bar. The one with the piercings and has the whole “emo girl” look going on. She sits on the counter by the other sink, I smile at her, “thanks ...you know…for helping out there,” I say pointing back to the door,” I should’ve yelled or something , I don't know why I just froze like that… that dude scared me shit-less!” I say letting out a breath.

“No worries, I totally understand, I probably would’ve done the same thing,” she laughs at me. “I’m Veronica by the way, you’re not from around here are you?" she says, she looks at me , raises her brows as if examining me over and puts her hand out to shake mine . “I'm Lexi , just move here with my mom from down South .”

“Oh Yes, you must know my aunt Amber? She’s quite silly isn’t she ? She acts like my younger sister, not my aunt, it’s quite funny actually.” She says. “Don’t even get me started on my mother , she drives me crazy ,she has to take me to enroll at school on Friday, I'm dreading it – she’s determined to go with me even though I told her it’s not necessary , she probably just wants to check out the “talent” ,” I say wiggling my eyebrows up and down. We both burst out laughing , I sit on the other counter and we share stories about my mother and her aunt . Our eyes are watering we laughing so hard, it feels so good , because I haven't laughed like that in a real long time.

“oh shit , we’ve been in here a while , I gotta get my mom and your aunt home before they start dancing on tables and stripping,” jumping off the counter onto my feet I say ,”…and believe me my mom has done that , it’s not a pretty sight! It was nice meeting you Veronica, I’m sure I’ll see you around.”

She laughs,” Please call me Ronny, all my friends call me that , we should hang out sometime – you can meet all my friends , they’ll love you.Lets go before people start taking their clothes off on tables.”

I laugh as she opens the door and I walk into a hard chest , “oh shit … I’m sorry , I wasn’t looking where I was …” I look up to see those beautiful green eyes staring down at me again.

He chuckles , “No worries babe, are you okay?”

“Yeah I’m better now,” I say looking at Ronny at my side, ‘ Thank you , for helping me out with that guy .”

“It’s all good, I'm Jax by the way, you’ve obviously met Ronny here “ Jax says .

“I’m Lexi,” I say nodding, I hear whistling coming from the main bar area , I look at Ronny and our eyes widen with realization of what was most likely happening in the bar, “oh shit !” I yell , I start making a run for the bar with Ronny at my side.

I know my mother all too well, she’s on top of the bar, doing her slutty dance routine, I see Amber with her head on her arms on the bar, “Is she sleeping?” I ask Ronny pointing to Amber, we start giggling, I get on the bar trying to convince my mom to get off without making a scene. The catcalls and whistling gets louder, I blush, I’m probably beet red now- thank fuck its dark enough up here.

“Georgina! What are you doing?? “I whisper in her ear, “oh come on Lexi baby, come dance with your mama,” she shouts out loud. “Fuck it!” I yell as I grab her hand and pull her off to the side of the bar, she stumbles a bit. I jump off the bar and start pulling her but she’s too heavy.

“Here, let me help you.” Jax says as he effortlessly carries my mom over his shoulder with her ass in the air, “thanks,” I mumble. Mom giggles to herself all the way to the car . Once we have both the two drunkards in the back seat, I say my thanks to Jax, Ronny is staying over at Amber's place so she gets a lift with us . I drop Amber at her place and watch as Ronnie helps her inside.

After struggling with my mom, to get her dressed in her pj’s, I finally get her in her bed. As I’m in my room getting changed, I hear mom in the bathroom coughing and throwing up. Sighing I get a cloth, wet it and head to the bathroom. I’ve done this plenty of times , I know I should play the tough love act and let her deal with it herself and maybe she will learn, but I just can’t …even though she doesn’t act like the mother I once had , I can’t leave her like this – its breaking what little of a heart I have left.

Walking into the bathroom, I see moms got her head resting on the side of the toilet. With tears flowing down her face , I bend over to help her, pulling her between my legs and rest her head on my chest , I clean her face – she looks terrible all her make-up running down her face from the tears.

My heart aches for her, I’ve been trying to hide all my emotions for so long now and since moving here all those emotions and feelings that I thought I had lost seem to be slowly creeping up on me. I need to get a hold of myself.

“I miss him so damn much Alexia...” mom whispers, almost as if she’s scared for me to hear.

I kiss her forehead, “yeah mom, I know, and I miss him so…. so much too.” my voice trembling trying to stop myself from crying .

She stops sobbing and I help her up off the floor, and we head to her room. I tuck her in bed and kiss her forehead.

“Goodnight, Lexi, I love you.” She says, “Love you to mom, and sleep tight”. I close the door and head down to my room. As soon as my head hits the pillow, I’m out; it’s been an exhausting evening.