ONLY YOU of BTS

Only You: Chapter 43

The truth is I was readily packed that night so that turning back wouldn't be possible. Because I might not be able to refuse when the thought of seeing him plead for me to stay again happens.

But I guess, this is for the best. This is the only way we can go on with our lives and that is to live separately because as far as I know we are never really good for each other. He will never have to listen to me nagging again and saying that he's stupid. I wouldn't be as irritated as always when he bugs me, we will never have to stay up late just to talk to each other and never have the chance to feel pain again because of the other.

I just wish that he is doing well and not feeling what I am feeling every single day. I can't manage the thought of seeing him hurt again because of me and having me to feelt that pain is enough.

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These past six months, even though living through it was a complete struggle, I've got the chance to do a big difference in my life. I solely live in a suburban area near Chungju and have worked on my newly published book "Unspoken".

It is all about the unspoken and unheard words that I've been longing to say. It is about the struggle of learning to love and learning to let go. The reasons why people have to leave and the reason that I left.

During the times when I was working on the book, I did a part time job as well as an editor near the area. And since I live near Chungju, I visit my mom constantly, which has moved houses as my request because I don't want for my mom to get involve to my problem.

Only a month has passed since my book was published yet it was unbelievably one of the best selling book in Korea. I guess my five months of hard work paid off.

The first day of the fourth week of August is the date of the book signing event. Where all the people that have read and admired my work will come to the venue and allow me to sign their purchased books.

At the event, I've met several readers who really loved my book, some of them can relate to it and then the others just finds it interesting. I, on the other hand, doesn't really care if they love my book or not just as long as they'll be inspired from it and learn from it.

At the midst of it all, "May I know to whom this is dedicated to?" I ready my pen to sign the book that is being held in front of me.

I noticed the hands was from a guy so that caught my attention because majority of the gender that has bought my book was girls. Guys rarely buys this kind of genre of a book and rarely go to a book signing event too.

As I lift my head up to look who it was, I wasn't that surprised from what I saw. To be honest, I was more displeased. Displeased with myself because I was expecting a different guy to show up but somehow glad that I was able to see just one of them.

I requested for the event organizer to let me have a break so that I can talk to him in private. We head outside of the venue and try to catch up with each other.

"What are you doing here, Seokjin?" I ask.

"Don't act like you're not happy to see me," he utters jokingly but I remained indifferent. "I read your book and obviously a lot of people did too. Congratulations. It turned out amazing," he adds, flashing a big grin.

I want to ask him if the others or just that one person in my head was able to read it too but I don't have the guts to do so. So, I asked him a different one instead.