Forbidden Love

chapter forty three

Listen to the song on the side while you read this chapter! Well mid way lol

"Nope."

"Yes."

"No!"

"Yes!"

I glared at Julian, not wanting to get back on the dance floor after what I just encountered with Tobias. I haven't seen him since I was outside and frankly I wouldn't care if I didn't have to see him ever again. I was happy mellowing in my little corner with a bottle of red wine.

Julian was holding onto my wrist, slowly pulling me onto the dance floor. Ignition by R. Kelly began playing and I knew I was screwed. Julian grinned at me, knowing that I couldn't contain myself either.

"Okay, okay! I'm coming!" I giggled, a little intoxicated by the wine. A little.

Noel screamed with delight when she saw me emerge from hiding. She abandoned Scott, whom she was dancing with, to come join me.

"I thought you were mad at me after what I said in the bathroom," Noel said, talking into my ear due to how loud the music was. "I couldn't find you anywhere."

"I needed air," I simply replied, leaning back so that I could give her a smile.

Noel smiled back before swallowing me in a hug. "I love you so much. Thank you for making all this possible."

"I would've done what any other best friend and maid of honor would've done."

Noel blushed before squealing as the chorus began playing. We both sang off key and rather loudly at that. We were blissful, happy, just two girls from the city of New York who were just now fully emerging in the adult life.

Noel had her life set for herself; she now had a husband, soon to develop her architecture career, and a beautiful apartment to top things all off. If things ever got bad it was going to be okay for her. Scott was there as he continued to always be and if either of their careers didn't blossom then Scott's family wouldn't hesitate to help, even though Scott denied that he needed any money from them from the start.

On the other hand, my life wasn't as sunshine and rainbows as hers was, it was chaotic. I had no real family expect for my mother, who was too busy with her own life to even pay attention to mines. She was happy the moment I turned eighteen. She wanted me out the house so she could finally live her life without the burden of a kid, which I was okay with because I wanted nothing else but to get out as well. But I felt like I finally had a family, with Tobias. Things felt like they were finally looking up for me but in reality they were slowly crumbling.

As I took a break from dancing, kicking off my heels in the process, I thought about what I missed. I couldn't grasp why Tobias would cheat on me, with Rachel of all people.

I thought about the night where he saved me from the crazy people trying to kidnap me, how he was so keen on protecting me. What happened to that Tobias? I thought of how I saw him outside the bar after I came back from taste testing things for Noel and how his eyes looked so glassy and filled with hate as he fought with that British stranger, but the moment he saw me his eyes immediately shifted to a look of passion. What happened to that Tobias? I remember how I flooded out all my emotions I was feeling, how I told him how I needed him but I was too afraid to jump into a relationship, and he only stared back at me like I was the most precious thing in his life. What happened to that Tobias? I remember how he held me that night, so tightly in his arms, almost as if he was afraid of loosing me, of how he couldn't bare the thought of loosing me. I thought of just last week, of how he took care of me when I was sick, of how goofy and careless he was with me, how he managed to always smile around me.

I tear slide down my face as Tobias emerged from the bar, his face stone cold as he walked away. What happened to you Tobias? What happened to us?

I pulled Noel aside and she immediately knew something was wrong. I shook my head and rested my head on her shoulder as she pulled me in her arms.

"I know R, I know," she cooed, soothing me. "The night is basically over. Go ahead, go back to your hotel room."

I didn't have to be told twice. I tried to stay strong through this night, to not let Tobias ruin my best friends wedding for me, but it was too much for me to handle. Tobias was the perfect person to love, the perfect person to call mines, but he let me down too soon.

I quietly slipped passed the remaining guests, who were slowly starting to leave as well. I held the straps of my heels in my fingers while I grasped my clutch into the other hand. Mascara stained my face as I stared at my reflection outside of the elevator. I pressed the number to my floor and closed my eyes as it shut. I felt my body begin to shake as I cried again. I weeped, my cries sounding like someone gasping for air.

My heart was slowly shattering. I collapsed on the floor of the elevator, my dress fluffing in a blanket around me. I couldn't take it anymore. I screamed out in agony, my body drowning in sorrow. Everything was hurting and I had no idea how to stop it. My bones ached and I pounded my hands against the steel elevators, trying to stop them from aching. My stomach felt as if it was trying to claw its way out of my body, trying to escape the excruciating pain it was feeling. My heart... My heart was shot, it was bleeding out but no one was here to save it. I tilted my head back, my sobs finally being able to be released. My hands were in fists as I grabbed my bridesmaid dress, clutching onto as if it was holding me upright. My knuckles were red and lacerated from the force of hitting them against the elevator

The elevator dinged as it stopped, but I couldn't bring myself to get out. I looked down, burying my head into my dress. I couldn't do anything but lay there. I was paralyzed, unable to move.

Just as the elevators were about to shut somebody placed their hand in between the door. I didn't look up, I couldn't. But I heard Julian's voice and that's all it took for me to interrupt in another round of tears.

He helped me up, his arms picking me up. I laid limp into his arms, my head tucked in the crook of his neck. I felt something wet around my knuckles and I raised my head up and found them scraped with blood. Julian swiped his keycard into my room and laid me gently on the bed. I saw his mouth moving but I couldn't make out anything he was saying.

I was finally numb. My tears stopped and my body no longer hurting. I blinked once, then twice, before I saw Julian pace back and forth. He crouched down next to my bed and said something before walking back out. That was the last thing I remembered before everything went black.

So last chapter of the wedding night! I didn't expect it to go in this direction, but then again all my chapters are kind of improvised. I hope you guys enjoyed this. It was so hard for me to write this. One, I felt like I was actually Reign. In a way she kind of is me, but to a certain extent. I felt the pain she was feeling. Two, I love Tobias and it just pains me to know that they aren't together. Three, I've never been in an actual relationship so all the stuff I write is purely through imagination lmao. I hope I did well on this chapter though.

Please tell me what you guys thought of this chapter. Your comments, all of your comments, help me become a better writer and they make me happy lol. My family knows that I write and support me however they think of it as a hobby. Now I'm not saying that I want to make a career out of writing but it would be nice to publish my book one day. Reading and writing has been a passion of mines for as long as I could remember. I just want to prove to my parents that you can be successful without be a doctor (if you have strict parents or foreign parents you'll understand haha)

Well I'm ranting. I just want you guys to know how much I really appreciate all these votes and comments and especially reads! Thanks so much for the 30K+ reads! Honestly, it means a lot so thanks ❤️