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"It's selfish. That's what it is Hanbin. You promised me we would go to China together. You said you would tell them today and you completely left me in the dark. You could've told me you couldn't do it anymore. But no, you just sat there whilst they talked to me as if it was the first and last time they'd ever see me. It fucking hurt..."
"Aren't you being dramatic? Whether I want to go with you or not is my business, don't bring my family into it."
"Are you serious? You made so many promises to me, I told you everything, I was so honest and all you did was lie to my face. Don't you feel guilty?"
"I lied? I never-"
"You told me that they knew...about us...you said they all did and I- I had to sit there whilst they told me how good of a friend I was to you..."
I stood there, feeling the guilt rising within me. He was right, I had lied. I didn't mean to lie, in fact I did plan on telling them before we got there but every time I wanted to tell them something got in the way...
I stepped forward to hug him as a tear rolled down his face. As our bodies touched he shoved me. I watched as his face changed. His anger turned to shock and worry as I felt myself slipping from the step. He reached his arm out to grab me, but he was too late.

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HANBIN POV:
I sat in bed, feeling like my stomach was still tied in knots. It killed me inside thinking back on the night before. Why did I do that? I was overwhelmed with a mixture of embarrassment and anger. I felt awful for putting Gyuvin and Hao in that situation, and I was angry, partly at Hao, but mostly at Yuxuan. He was just annoying. The way he talked to me, the way he looked at Hao for approval after bad mouthing me to my face.
Thinking back on it, I wondered to myself.
Why did Hao bring him here...why was Jiahao even here in the first place.
The question weighed on me, I needed to know what he was doing here. Was it just to tick me off? Did he get some kind of thrill from it? Or was he here for an actual reason?

"Don't get drunk by yourself again, Gyuvin didn't know your limits..." I heard Matthew shout from the kitchen.
I lugged myself out of bed and through to the room he resided.

I sat at the table and rested my head against the wooden surface.
"It's a good job I work out, it's not easy carrying a person taller than you, especially when he's acting like a dead weight..."
"I'm sorry, Matthew."
"Don't give me the puppy eyes, I'm not forgiving you that easily." He huffed as he looked away from me.
I chuckled and sat up straight.
"Poor Gyuvin, he must've been really confused..." I sighed.
"Have you heard anything from Hao?"
Obviously not,
I thought.
He was too busy cozying up to Yuxuan.
I shook my head.
"I told him not to bring Yuxuan...and he said he wasn't going to as well." Matthew grumbled, "always causing some sort of problem you two are..."
He meant me and Hao. He wasn't wrong though, it seemed our relationship was nothing short of rocky. Hao had told me we used to argue often back in high school too, things like this were nothing new to Matthew.
"It's not like I want all these problems, Hao just seems to know how to get under my skin."
"No kidding, I've never seen you that angry since the last time you and Yuxuan fought."
The last time? What was the last time? I had too many questions on the subject.

I left it be, letting my thoughts rest for a while. I decided to use my Saturday to mentally recover. It had been a straining couple of weeks for me. I left the house, the warm summer air hugging the bare skin on my arms. This time it really was t-shirt weather.

I made my way down to the cafe, it was only a short bus journey away from my house. The outside was so comforting, the brown wood structure and the light windows. The grey sign, the white umbrellas on the round tables outside and the white and grey canopy above the door.
I wandered up and pushed the door open, hearing the bell jingle as I did.
"Welcome!" A voice rang from the back as a woman carrying a large cardboard box walked out from the door behind the counter. She stopped in her tracks as she spotted me, instantly putting down the box and rushing over.
"Hanbin! Oh my lovely son how have you been?! You haven't called in so long!" She went on as she hugged me tightly.
I smiled and hugged her back.
"Sorry Mom, I did mean to call but I've been so busy with work."
"Matthew told me about your fall, how's your head?"
"I'm fine, I've had worse falls..."
Her face suddenly turned slightly, her eyebrows straightening and her eyes dulling for a moment. She knew that I'd found out.
"A-ah, well as long as you're okay, hm?" She laughed awkwardly, "anyway, come and sit down I'll get you a drink."